nothing

make a choice

2007-08-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

so...

should i STAY or should i GO?

NUROOL

reproductive system

2007-08-11T20:12:00.000+08:00

okay, taking a break from the studying now. (though it's not that much that i've covered to deserve a proper break), but hey.. here's a quick update lah okay. later if i don't update you all say, my blog stagnant.. aper jeeeerrr.

i'm currently on Bio now. i hope to finish Reproductive System by today. and for tomorrow, Endocrine System and Monday (plus Tuesday) i'll then concentrate on Blood and Immunology. hopefully i can make it to cover everything. oh, please please.

this is the first time i'm so semangat about studying Bio, and it's everything. I've limited myself to three days per module (because i'm really left with NINE days to exams, and i don't have the time already) and i dont wish to drag any module more than the assigned days because my exams are BACK TO BACK!

Bio. Med-Surg. Paeds.

FUCK LA. now that i just typed it out, Med-Surg is another killer topic that i need to concentrate on. fuckfuckfuck. I HATE THAT TOPIC. with all the retarded lecturers (except Kamalia) who're lecturing that module, it all makes it even drier and boring and......... seemingly meaningless.

:(

NOW I WISH I STUDIED EARLIER. fucking remorse. okay okay, i shan't procrastinate now. at least i still have NINE more days, rather than NINE more hours, right?

BRIGHT SIDE! BRIGHT SIDE! - i've (almost) completed female part of Reproductive System! yay. Male, Labour and Conception to go.

BRIGHT SIDE! BRIGHT SIDE! - i'm going back to the books.

okaybye,loveyou.
NUROOL!

Back to Basics

2007-08-11T20:03:00.000+08:00

Save Me from Myself

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you've gotta be
Everything's changin
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waitin
With your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
'Cause some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow May be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm cryin
'Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smilin
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you
It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

Back to Basics, Christina Aguilera.

My favourite song. Top, on her list. :)
NUROOL

STEWEN....

2007-08-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

LOOKING FOR A BOYFRIEND?... LIKE HIM??

WANT A HOT SEXY BODY LIKE HIM?

call +65 93something something... blablabla..

fuck, why do i even BOTHER to go here. i'm so free like that. gosh, I THINK I NEED BETTER THINGS TO DO.

but gee, looking at all his videos and whatnot, where the hell does he find time to do all those? dancing, to "advetorials" of himself - to look for a girlfriend. my god, this guy has too much time in his hands.

doesnt he work?
doesnt he has got some LIFE to do?
doesnt he need money?

i think im digressing too much. but he irritates the bitch out of me. LIKE, MAXIMUUUUUUMMMMM.

and JY la! ask me go see his STUPID website. "MOST HANDSOME...." dont know whaaat. GOSH GOSH GOSH.

i need to brainwash.

& HIT THE BOOKS.

PRONTO!
NUROOL.

two-way.

2007-08-10T21:02:00.001+08:00

i got this from a friend, online. read on:

I was a very happy person. My wonderful girlfriend and I had been dating for over a year, and so we decided to get married. There was only one little thing bothering me...It was her beautiful younger sister!

My prospective sister-in-law was twenty-two, wore very tight miniskirts, and generally was bra-less. She would regularly bend down when she was near me, and I always got more than a nice view. It had to be deliberate because she never did it when she was near anyone else.

One day her "little" sister called and asked me to come over to check the wedding invitations. She was alone when I arrived, and she whispered to me that she had feelings and desires for me that she couldn't overcome. She told me that she wanted me just once before I got married and committed my life to her sister.

Well, I was in total shock, and couldn't say a word. She said, "I'm going upstairs to my bedroom, and if you want one last wild fling, just come up and get me."

I was stunned and frozen in shock as I watched her go up the stairs. I stood there for a moment, then turned and made a beeline straight to the front door. I opened the door, and headed straight towards my car.

Lo and behold, my entire future family was standing outside all clapping! With tears in his eyes, my future father-in-law hugged me and said, We are very happy that you have passed our little test. We couldn't ask for better man for our daughter. Welcome to the family!"

And the moral of this story is:

Always keep your condoms in your car!

yeah i knowwwwwwwww..... i screamed, "fuck lah" in my head too. hahahaha. :D

but that's really a good one, :)
ROOL.

psst.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, SG!

wha-de-verr

2007-08-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

seriously, i cannot stand Steven Lim. and that video above? is a superbly hilarious version to make fun of Lim, making fun of himself. he's seriously such an attention seeking bastard, that i, for one, find the most annoyed with.

anyhoots, Psych was pretty.......... bad. i don't know. maybe i wasnt confident? maybe i wasnt prepared? im actually abit of both. sigh sigh, disappointing but oh wells, it's over. now, i've got 11 more days (minus tomorrow because i'll be out the whole day to catch Rush Hour 3!) to the exams, and i have to study for three modules. 3 days plus plus for one module each and that is seriously not enough!

i hope i can manage. i really need to start studying already. and momo had better stop looking at bikes (and strain his eyes further) and continue mugging as well. your exams are in 7 days, boy! make mami poko proudd. :)

PICTURES :) and anyway, i'm far too lazy to talk about KL. maybe i'll post about my freak incidentS with cockroaches in KL and Singapore. but that'll come later, when i'm not all full and bloated like right now. and when i've got more time to spare for this space. :)

okay, i think i havent been posting pictures for far too long. and i think for those who havent noticed til now (who're ought to be slapped and smacked) that i've snipped those tresses of mine, here's a few pictures for you:

heh. how's it? many people said i looked better in long hair though i DO look younger in short tresses. well, im in for both sides. i havent missed my long hair yet, but i will once this short hair is far too unkempt and messy.

but that's not going to come now.

i need the pay to sink in soon.
i need the exams to scram off soon.
i need the week to fast (to pay back the debts) soon.
i need the movie mania soon.
i need the Project 50 to commence soon!
i need the books to come to me soon.
i need the mood to start the momentum soon.
i need the soon, soon!

BYE!
ROOL.

{steven lim still suck, SO BAD!}

p.s. i lost my cosmetics pouch. which i happily left it in the toilet outside the tutorial rooms in the H block at Level 6. careless, careless girl i am. i know.. and i misplaced my favourite pen-eraser that i have been using since Sec 4 til.... i lost it. :(

since i lost my phone the other day, and that my N3230 died on me, i've been using dad's N6030 for a week til he couldnt take it that he's handphoneless. so he bought me a second hand phone, SGH-X520, for a cute amount of $110. i know it's a very basic phone, but i love its sleek outlook and it's flipping mechanism!

:) flip phones, i loike!

so, thank you dad for that. and... since i lost my eraser, my brother who kindly offered to buy me another one, with me thinking and persisting to myself that he'll forget, DID buy me another exact same pen-eraser. only that the eraser in it is white, because he "don't know what colour i'd like". AWWWWWWWWWW~ he's such a sweety! and he even said that "my school's phone broke down. so i couldn't call you".. when i left my number in his EZ-Link compartment in his wallet there, if he was really buying it.

oh god. the little little things that makes my day so joyful. :)

and, my hunky boyfriend meeting me in the morning, rushed to school FOR ME, WITH ME, PULLING MY HANDS, because i was late for class (which was cancelled, damnit)... and then picking me up and sending me home, from school with ice-cream to walk home with, was definitely the best thing that happened today. :)

thanks for everything. I HEART YOU!!!!

Project 50.

2007-08-06T23:41:00.000+08:00

i know, i know. what the fuck am i thinking, to be blogging at such an hour with my Psych (both developmental and health crammed in 50 minutes of MCQ questions) ICA tmrw. but heck, im drained! effin' drained that i think i can just hit a wall with my brains and still not falter...

im so dramatic like that.

hello you. you're reading a rant from about to turn 18-year-old girl who's just about had enough of studying up til this hour. jam-packed la my brain... how ah?

well i found something when studying health psych (or more like writing notes):

Good Health Habits & Good Health.
7 IMPORTANT health habits:-

1. Sleeping (7-8hrs/day)
2. Having breakfast everyday
3. Not smoking
4. Rarely eating between meals
5. Being near/at prescribed weight
6. Having moderate or no intake of alcohol
7. Regular exercise

MAMPOS.

i am SOOOO TOTALLY not practicing all points except #1 (which i can totally sleep for 10 hours straight but that's bad also), #3 & #6 because i dont drink NOR smoke. :D but feck, that's just 2 out of 7. FAIL FAIL FAIL..

no wonder im effin' unhealthy. plus just now i just had three slices of fucking pizza. that cheesy fondue thing. WALAO. NUROOL AH! YOU CAN DIE OF CHEESE AND ALL THAT CHOLESTEROL ALREADY AHHHHH!!!!!

so, mo came up with Project 50. yeah, you guessed it right. to hit 50kg which i, proudly, was... ONCE UPON A TIME. oh wells. that was three years ago, when i was still....... having very ~~bad~~ unhealthy habits. so yeah, that's unhealthy thin! i want HEALTHY and MEATY but pretty thin. :D

oh god oh god. i need 10 months MAX, hopefully. to be 50kg again. i shan't and will never expose my weight here so all of you shall die of curosity because my always and forever answer to "what's your weight?" question is: 120kg. :)

i hope i hope this project this project shall work shall work.

I NEED TO MAKE IT WORK.
phewws.

i think ive let out enough.
PSYCHOLOGY NOW...

BYE!
NUROOL.

SOMEBODY SAAAAAAAVVVVVVEEEEEEEE ME!~

mi chico caliente!

2007-08-04T18:09:00.000+08:00

#1. Health Psych "Pain" Presentation - Tuesday, 31st July.
#2. BCLS(CPR) Practical Exam - Tuesday, 31st July.
#3. Patient Education "Child Immunisation" Presentation - Friday, 3rd Aug.
#4. Submission of Webpage(Frontpage) Health Informatics - Friday, 3rd Aug.
#5. Developmental Psych ICA - Tuesday, 7th Aug.
#6. Semestrial Exams - 20th to 22nd Aug.

TWO MORE, TWO MORE.

okay, it's actually two more (plus two). cause point #5 and #6 is two and under point #6, theres three papers. you get it? okay. now i really dont see the POINT in explaining at all. :D

I CANT BELIEVE IT'S ALMOST OVER. well, in the case of presentations, everything's over. thank god, thank god. i dont have to be in the same group with that two *coughASSHOLEScough* anymore. HOPEFULLY, with the new shuffling of group mates, i WONT have to get EITHER of them too. *PRAYSHARD*

three semesters working with those two pain in each of my buttcheeks... & i sweore my eyes couldve bled to death had i not be so straightforward and very naggy (most of the time). THANK GOD IM THAT LOUD TO SPEAK HUNDREDS OF THOUGHTS UP ABOUT THEM. heh. ;D

okay that's not the point. point here is, i soo cant wait for this whole semester to be over. so that it's almost raya already and i can celebrate! there's the exams coming up, then followed by the KK postings almost immediately, which eats into the fasting month.

so by the time everything' over, i'll have time to prepare for raya! :)

i know i haven't been blogging much. but really, i didnt have the time. and the only reason im doing this is cause i think i need to let out a lil bit from the mega hectic schedule that im jam-packed with.

two weeks more to exams, I HOPE I CAN MAKE IT.

mo's flying to Thailand from 1st to 5th Sept. and it's a bit depressing to know it's confirmed. but i guess, it's best for him la. since his mom badly wants that vacation, they should all go and enjoy themselves before their Singapore's life gets the best of them yet again.

okay! fast fast fast.

I AM LOOKING FOR A TUTOR, PREFEBALY A HOME TUTOR WHO CAN TUTOR MY PRIMARY 2 BROTHER FOR HIS UPCOMING CA. FOR THE MONTH OF AUGUST, HOPEFULLY THE TUTOR IS WILLING TO GO INTENSIVE FOR MY BROTHER. and maybe after the end of august, til whenever... you can just continue to tutor my brother if he performs out of that tuition.

my mom is seriously in need of a tutor. and if any of you are willing to do this, youre doing us a big favour and you are also sparing me from potentially failing my exams. (heh). okay, if there's anything or enquiries, please email me @ starlightbeauty-@hotmail.com. or you can leave a tag with your email down so i can get back to you. :) THANKS!

got to go!
NUROOL.

30 Seconds to Mars - The Kill

2007-07-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Falling from myself
Falling for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break...?

Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?.

2007-07-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone. Momo here to blog. Yes i know you guys miss Rool. I do too, in fact so much although it will be just for 2 days. I'm here to blog about my so boring and unhappening Saturday. Haha.

Well, woke up quite early today thanks to Baby's message. Hope she's doing fine and enjoying herself there and gets to do some shopping. Hehh. Okay, back to my story. Haha. After i woke up got ready and prepared breakfast for Mama and abg and then out I went to meet Bah at cck mrt. Saturday's my football day! YAY! Haha.

It was quite enjoyable today playing there just like everytime. Stopped playing at around 12.30 thanks to the rain. Aiyoh spoilt the mood. So just sat around at the void deck for around an hour i think. Hah. Thought of gymming but Mr L for lazy was forcing me home. Haha.

It's been super long lah since i last gym-ed! I miss those barbells man and my beloved bench press. Haha. Nevermind lah, after exam can go everyday. Btw, finally passed my 7.01 last night. Like finally seh ! So next week gonna take my 8.01 and then wait for my TP. Yeap, TP coming! YAY! 27th Aug. Exams pon coming! NO YAY! Haha.

Well I guess got to start studying soon lah. Luckily all lectures has been covered so most of the days in school would be revision lessons. Wow, I really can't wait to finish all my exams. 2 more weeks to go! Hope it's enough to study for all subjects although i really find Aircraft Power Plants to be a real pain in the ass. Ohh and Cadd test in 2 weeks time. I really want to score for this test and finish up my assesed tutorial by Wednesday maybe.

Btw, ive pump my bike wheels! Haha like finally lah. Took it for a ride yesterday at the carpark below to "train" on my U turn. Haha. Guess it paid off ah. But i thnik i really wasted alot on money on road lessons seh. Nevermind later pass TP already can enjoy. Wahhh! Can't wait to get my own bike. Hehe. So back to my bicycle, took it out again today. Helped to buy some stuffs for Mama at Lot 1 in the evening. So yeah, was kinda fun lah so long never ride ready.

And I'm so pissed off with the SCV set-top box! It just died on us!!! How could it die on a Saturday!! lucky no football tonight. Mama called them and asked them to have a look and guess what. Tomorrow's fully booked! So they could only make it on Monday at 4 to 6pm lagi. Haiyoh.. Gonna be a very boring Sunday too. Maybe can go biking again. Haha but no friend.

But it's okay can amuse myself with Transformers at home! Haha. Quite a nice game ah. Nice graphics. Playing as Decepticons now. Trying to finish all the chapters soon. Gonna install in Baby's lappy soon so she and her brother can enjoy it. Hehh.

Wahh, so long since i last blogged so i'm sorry if it's a boring post lah. Just wanted to blog about my day. So till next time! So long and goodnight folks! Btw, go watch simpsons pple! great show! hehe and finally u'll get to see Bart's dick!! hahahahah. Spoiler sehh. Klah. Byee!! Love you all and Baby(most-est hehe).

Truly Yours
Momo ( Rool's baby )

M is for?

2007-07-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

Money, Mother, Mates, Makan, Maps, &...............

MALAYSIA

okay, this is the part i'm so excited about. it's the SHOPPING! i've set aside fifty sing dollars (i know, it's a little too little) but heck, i bet the rest is going to be covered by mommeh, REST ASSURED!

well, at least i go on to save the money that i have to at least burn a shallower hole in mom's pockets. ;D

actually im not that excited about shopping. it's more like the breakaway (though i know i'd miss momo terribly although it's only TWO DAYS ONE NIGHT) and the time i get to spend, away from singapore. the hustle and bustle. i hope it's good because it's short.. (because it HAS to be a good one should it be a long vacation.. that's the purpose of a LONG vacation, right? good and relaxing enough? okay, digressing too much.)

anyhoots, Mummy (Rina), Mommey, Mama, Cik Jah & Husband, Nina, Mellissa & me will be hitting KL tomorrow morning. til sunday, that is. i dont know what exactly the agenda or the trip plan is yet (except for being at CCK at 7am sharp) so the excitement is still not burning yet. hehs.

i'll be pretty sad to leave mo behind and well of course he is, too. but im sure his saturday will be tiring him out enough for him to pass the day without much depression. heh. right, mo? ;D and sunday, all you have to do is await my return! woo~

meanwhile, im still waiting for my measely attachments pay to top me up for my shopping expenditure (in Singapore) because im seriously running out of clothes to wear. shit man, i hate it when im so excited, with so much things in my head but i cant just seem to type it all out. in fact, im blocked right now.

in case all of you are wondering how come there's not much (or any) new pictures uploaded, my phone (N3230) is officially a piece of shit. the LCD screen totally whited out on me, and therefore suffering the fate which almost all the other of its own kind faced (to leave me abandoned with a basic basic basic phone), called the "White Screen Death".

it's been showing lines of different and many colours before it's death and all sort of fading effects you can never find on Microsoft Powerpoint. it was frustrating to use a phone that keeps whiting out on you, and eventually "live" with a phone which you constantly have to "tyco tyco" press around.

i might have even called some fucktard stranger for all i know. GOODNESS.

so now im using dad's phone (which leaves him phoneless - making me feel ultra bad about it) and he said he's going to get a cheap cheap phone. like, fifty cents kindar phone. whoa, must be kidding right. even the child's phone cost like two bucks. tsktsktsk...

Note: "child's phone = toy phone. the one you press one button come out 10 sounds"

oh dear.

so so so.... oh yeah! i remembered, i wanted to say that im feeling kindar guilty too going for this KL trip because ive got a presentation on the following tuesday when im back, and its not even halfway done, kindar. and they(subgroup mates)'re going to have a group meeting tomorrow without me.

and i cant help worrying that they might not be able to handle without me. well, since im always the do-er anyways. so i worry they wont be able to organise the way it's supposed to be (more like the way it's suppose to go: MY WAY), because im very much of a perfectionist, so yeah. you cant blame me, really.

more due dates and submission following that as well, and i feel almost choked up til the end of my throat. and let me just list them down, to make a mental note:

#1. Health Psych "Pain" Presentation - Tuesday, 31st July.
#2. BCLS(CPR) Practical Exam - Tuesday, 31st July.
#3. Patient Education "Child Immunisation" Presentation - Friday, 3rd Aug.
#4. Submission of Webpage(Frontpage) Health Informatics - Friday, 3rd Aug.
#5. Developmental Psych ICA - Tuesday, 7th Aug.
#6. Semestrial Exams - 20th to 22nd Aug.

OMGOMGOMG. *Stress* ~~I need to donate blood. because~~ i'm not thinking straight. oh god, please help me.

I SAW MEYAA AT ANG MO KIO HUB (with Mak) JUST NOW! AND I WAS SO FUCKING HAPPY BECAUSE I HAVEN'T MET HER IN LIKE SOOOOOOO LONG, AND AND AND HUGGING HER WAS LIKE A DREAM COME TRUE!

i didnt realise it was her until she was close enough for me to see her big big big grin on her face, making me feel all aww-ish and jittery inside, seh! i hugged meyaa sooo tight (&long) that Mak said, "hai, dah tak kenal cik ke?" - translate: sigh, dont recognise me anymore, ah?"

NOOOOOOO CIK! I DO OKAY. I WAS JUST EXCITED LA. EVEN NOW! ;D;D

..and then i hugged her so tight also. hehs.

mo was like nudging me, saying "hey it's meyaa", and i still didnt quite catch him until i saw meyaa with my own eyes. ohhh godd, it's so great to see your loved ones again. and i wish to see more of her soon!

yes baby? MORE SOON OKAYS. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, DARLING. <3

hahahahahahahahaha.. (i love you too, more in fact, mo!) hehs.

SOME MORE PEOPLE I MISS:
# MUBZ!
# SITI!
# NURUUUUUUUUUL!

okay i really cant think now.

i love you all! take care. mwacks, bye!

(take care baby, i'll msg you. huggs*)

ROOL.

eepaaaa! eeepaaaa!

2007-07-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

I'VE CAUGHT THIS!

oh my god, it's so hilarious, i couldn't stop laughing in the freezing cold theatre! and had to share my puny (since im getting fatter) Puma jacket with Momo. HAHA!

i supposed the movie's supposed to be out on 27th July, and no wonder today when i bought the tickets, i was like, "eh 8 bucks ar?" but since Momo wanted to watch it so bad, i was like..... "you sure ah?" and agreed :)

anything to see that boy happy. <3

anyways, we got family combo popcorns, and it wasn't enough! haha, guess we have to go Lot 1's movie theatre to get the medium sized popcorn which is the size of the large largest at Cathay i think. oh, popcorn freaks!

i think my tooth fairy is putting it's spell on me already, hehe!

well, all in all, i think the movie's pretty funny though. with some explicit content, kindar. it should be rated NC-16! haha. PG macam tak sensitive langsung gituu. ngehehe.

great company, great snuggs, great movie, great (but not enough) popcorns, great day, great everything! ;D thanks for the awesome day, mo. wo ai ni.

let's ride on a totally different track.

i dont understand how some people really SHOW and ACT as if they don't bother, or never wanted to (anyways), but still do check up on you. well, not directly of course. then it'll all be a different story altogether, isn't it?

it's really weird and uncomfortable to know that someone who's decided to step out of your life is following up on it, somehow. and as much as you don't wna help believe that it might just be coincidence, you really find that your pieces of thoughts DO match and get into the right place.

oh, weird people.

and i dont quite get it too how these people work. at least i dont wish to try. but it's really bothering me why people are so thick in the face, with the mask that they wear, when how they feel is otherwise?

i never knew someone blocked me on MSN til i realise i never see that contact pop up anymore. then i finally realised that the contact was never in my list after so long, since the day that contact called it quits. oh, funny funny. and i went on to realise MORE that im being blocked!

Haha. how mediocre is that? VERY~ so well, since i thought well this contact is of no use anymore, so why i should i keep it again? so i blocked, and deleted (again, since i had to re-add to find out why that contact is isnt in my list) it.

i just hope things won't get any weirder.

oh pfft, it's so cold today, i swear i didnt take off my jacket until i reached the carpark near my house. and even as im blogging now, im feeling SO COLD. and sleepy~

i can hear my bed calling me already. oh please dont, i've got so much presentation due and whatnot but as it nears the due date, im feeling more and more lazier to touch on anything.

i wonder what happens of my coming exam, and it's preparation. ohpfft.

and tonight, the internet seems to be extra laggy and draggy and is making me soooooo pissed. okay, not soooo pissed la. just irritated. aiyah, i dont know what's the point of blogging right now also la. oh wells~

that's all for today!

manyloves.
ROOL. :)

somebody tell me why i'm on my own?

2007-07-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

natasha bedingfield has such an exotic voice. very negro-ish. i loike! as well as her new song, "Soulmate". awww, such a heartwarming song.

this morning sarmilla was telling us, during the clinical lab, about this guy (from the Ward) who texted her last night.

Sarmila: Wah lao eh, yesterday that stupid guy message me.
Fana: What he say?
Sarmila: Only second day he already say "I Miss You". And then i was like, "huh? you miss me for what? ha-ha.
Fana: Then then??
Sarmila: Then he also say, i miss your eyes. there's this one day you came to work without your glasses, i saw your eyes. theyre so exotic and i love them.
the whole class: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..

EXOTIC SEH. like she's got snakey eyes or something like that. hahahahaha, the way she said it, really damn funny la. we were all in the midst of practicing our BCLS and there she was telling her exotic eyes story to the whole class..

oh god. ;) i missed how my class made so much noise with our roar of laughters.

that stupid mannequin sucks. the chest compression was so hard and rigid. and we had to use a lot of force and strength to just do one compression. imagine 5 cycles of 30 compressions. i was panting by the third cycle already. and my compressions were getting weaker and weaker already..

didnt hit the green(passing) light and i already was dying right there.

and the infant dummie sucked too. we couldnt locate the correct placement to commence our infant CPR and we ended up pumping the whole baby's body to see if we hit the green light. alamak~

& tmrw, it's the BCLS (i forgot what "LS" stands for..) theory exam and i'm kinda not prepared, though there's nothing much for you to prepare other than reading up the notes (like duh). oh pfft..

and the BCLS practical exam (the CPR) itself is next week. exactly one week from now. Tuesday, 10-11am. i cannot fucking be late. argh, it's sooooooooooooo scary.

"if you fail one-man CPR, you cannot proceed to two-men CPR. if you fail the whole thing, you can resit it in year 3 if your teacher allows. if not, you graduate and people dont want to employ you"

damnit lor. sighsighsigh.

& i've got my Elective module presentation this Friday.
& the webpage designing due next Friday.
& Health Psych "Pain" presentation due next Tuesday.
& Developmental Psych ICA (exams) in two weeks.
& exams in less than a month's time.

OHMYGOD. i better scram now.

# happy 6th, babylove. ;) loveforever.

okbye!
ROOL.

stupid sonnawabish.

2007-07-23T10:14:00.000+08:00

1. Name one friend whose name begins with each letter:

A- Asyraf
B- Benjamin
C- Carisa
D- Darren
E- Esther
F- Firah
G- Ghent (Badri)
H- Hakeem
I- Imran
J- Jia Yi
K- Kino (Sharul)
L- Lelaa
M- Meisy
N- Naqiah
O- Omelette
P- Patrick (Timothy!)
Q- Q-cumber
R- Raymond
S- Sebastian
T- Tabitha
U- Umairah (hehe)
V- Victor
W- Wen Hao
X- Xueling
Y- Yong-yao
Z- Zulhilmie

2. How many siblings does A have?
Two.

3. What does B sms you about?
We don't sms. I lost his number also. heh.

4.What is C's nickname?
Chow Chow/Carisa/Bitce - by me only lah. haha.

5. Do you enjoy talkin on the phone with D?
Only once la. Haha.

6.How long do you know E?
Since NYP. :)

7. How much older/younger is F than you?
We're of the same age!

8.Name G's job now.
He's not working now.

9. What's H favourite words?
"Kak! faster come here!!"

10.How is I related to you?
Nursing World. :)

11. What happens if J becomes your enemy?
Ahaha. I dont think it'll ever happen. Then again, we never know. :)

12. Does J knows K?
Nuh uh.

13. Under what condition will L & M marry?
They're GIRLS. Though Lelaa can be a bit bi at times. :O hehe.

14. How many people do you know with N's name ?
ALOT. My name starts with an "N" too.

15. How do you know O?
Through my stomach :)

16. Is P very popular?
I don't know his circle of friends that much.

17. How SLIM is Q?
It depends, REALLY.

18. Does R know S?
First, I don't even know who's Raymond. and Sebastian, well... don't even know him that well. More like, don't even know him at all! (except his name and his gf is my bitch! hehe)

19. Is T a very curious person?
I guess? Hehe.

20. Do you take U as anything more than a friend?
YES. she's my darling sister (: and i dont know why i put her under "U"

21. Is V hot?
Nyahahaha. DNO?

22. When was the last time you met up with W?
Wow. We never met up. But the last I saw him? "2003" Pretty sad, uh?

23. How are you related to X?
Ex-Peirceans and same birthdays! :)

24. What's Y's favourite food?
More like favourite packs: Marlboro Reds. hahaha.

25. Name 3 of Z's best friends.
I don't know. I miss him, quite actually.

OKAY I WAS BORED.

but blame it on the phone. my cellphone. mobile phone. handphone. yes, THAT PHONE. it's spoilt. :( all it shows is a white screen and some lines. sorry but i don't understand alien characters which are probably invading my pathetic phone right now.

im sooo in need of a spare phone because this IS my spare phone (i lost my phone, rmb?) and and and..... i cant even get through anybody because all the numbers are stored in the phone. and that phone is blanked out.

so how?

ANYONE WITH A SPARE PHONE? i need it til Momo gets a spare phone for me. hahahaha. :D okay i know, no one wants to loan it to me right? nevermind you. i slap your face uh.

okthnxbye.
NUROOL.

BOO HOO!

i feel gooood.

2007-07-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

something from very long ago:

now i have much more mood to blog. :) so let's see. i helped atok at the stall today. and damn, i was so drained. i woke up nearly 7am (was supposed to get up at 6am), bathed and got dressed. it was raining pretty mildly and i just felt like dozing off again.

as compared to last week, today's crowd is slightly smaller. but they bought in bulks! the most number or orders today was 9 packets of rice with different kinds of dishes and each costing 4 bucks. whoa, he mustve helped atok make a bomb today! ngehehe.

and i forgot to bring my oven gloves. :( so my hands got pretty bad hot sores.

anyways, ended work around 4-ish and headed to grandma's. awwwwww, my pretty penguin. i missed her so much! the last i saw her was like what? almost two months ago? danggg, it was soo good to see her again.

we got to sit down and chat over silly stuffs and i cant help but seeing her face talk so cutely, and the way she holds her cup, and laugh with her eyes closed. awww.. i kept kissing her cheeks and hugging her also. i really miss my grandma. :) Alhamdulillah she's fine.

[momo, i hope that didnt offend you kays?]

it's only 8.46pm and im feeling all snoozy already. :( im such a pig. and tmrw, school's in already. how sad. how fast. how...... TIRING. projects, presentations due next week and the following one.

speedy gonzale.

by the way, im going to KL next weekend! i can't wait! finally a break out of the hectic life. well it's definately gna be shopping paradise for me! :) im so so so happy. and thanks to atok who gave me quite a bit of money for me to spend!

mwacks, i love everybody. okay i wna sleep. NIGHTS!

NUROOL.

wind of change

2007-07-21T23:11:00.000+08:00

wow. a new one now, eh? haha. makes me look as if ive got all the time in the world to go search for a new skin when i can happily replace the old one with some cute background.

:)

momo and i had a funny conversation today. we suddenly came up with what we could name our kids with, should we get married. and i just came up with Ishfiq. and since he wanted a double name, i thought Asyfiq would sound nicer.

so we came up with names and names. and i said, Asyfiq Nazryn would sound nice. then i came up with another name. Asyrul. haha, and i realised, that's a combination of OUR name. pretty cool huh?

thus, we've got two names: Asyfiq and Asyrul. i tried and tried to think of another name. well, just to wrap up the two. so i kept thinking and thinking. asyrin, asyzam..... then i gave up and said,

"ASYOK SUDAH"

and we both burst out laughing. LOL!!! i swear to you i was laughing so hard in front of the laptop, i almost woke the whole house up.

and im still giggling at the thought of it right now.

Asyok S/O Asyraf.

Ah, sajak lah tu!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ROOL:)

they make me go to rehab, i said noo noo noo..

2007-07-21T19:37:00.000+08:00

i have been seriously deprived of shopping.
& i need so much stuffs right now.
like: CLOTHES & BOTTOMS.

it's veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy irritating now for the fact that ive got sooo little clothes left to wear and im actually growing OUT of it because im getting fatter and fatter.

i've seriously put on so much on the kilos, that i think it's time i really have to cut down on my food and get back to my activities. i.e. swimming and running. i think the attachments have made me so fat. at least fatter than i used to be before this. and it's really depressing.

hahaha.

so, save up i will do and shopping malls i will go. and speaking of shopping. i seriously need a new MP3. my old one is a wreck now. and now i realise that it's really worth to invest on something expensive which will last you long. oh, pfft.

and i still want a new phone. :( since i lost mine, this phone is only used to call and sms only. and occasionally listen to the radio when im extremely bored at night. sigh sigh sigh.

i need so much things, and there's sooooo little cash on me right now. BOO HOO.

anyways, ive been helping out quite a bit at atok's nasi padang stall. i ain't going to tell you guys where in case you can spot me. haha. but yeah, it's really fun to be selling food and tending a stall you know. and i feel guilty because i still haven't gotten a thyphoid jab when im supposed to because now im handling with food&beverages.

i hope i'll get it soon too. for now, i must practice handling mighty hot stuff and get my hand all hot sore and burnt.

note to self: bring extra thick oven gloves tomorrow!

yeah, and i think i'll be helping out only on Sundays. :) because school is getting heavier on the shoulders now that attachments are over and im starting to feel the stress and pressure on me already.

exams are in 30more days. and i hope i can make it. study study study is all i have to do. and since there's only three papers (of VERY HEAVY WEIGHTAGE), i got to make sure i work extra hard for the good grades that i promised TTSH, kindar. :D

okay til then,
NUROOL.

[p.s.] i'm currently sooooo in love with christina aguilera's album "back to basics". im so sad i couldnt get tickets (because im broke) to her concert when she was here for her tour the other time. and and and....... since gwen's coming on the 14th of august, i wish i can get tickets! but sadly, it's my brother's birthday on that day. so, SIGH~ [/p.s.]

20.07.2007

2007-07-20T08:57:00.001+08:00

it is finally the last day of postings. and i am SO effin' glad. :D three weeks have passed pretty fast and i must say, it was helluva of an experience for me. of course, there are always the "bad" in the Good. but somehow, i guess it all makes up to each other.

HAHA, and you would have never guessed how much we hated our CI. and really, showed it to her! the CI or, SENIOR CLINICAL INSTRUCTOR(my foot!) gave us an evaluation form yesterday. it's more like a feedback form. you know? for the ward, and basically on her.

once i got that paper. i quickly sit down and without thinking, i already know what i was about to feedback on. there was a "1" for being below satisfaction and a "5" for being above satisfaction.

yeah, you know. im a very straight forward girl. well, too bad (and thank god) that they didnt provide a mandatory "Name" field. but i could've written my name (probably in the worst handwriting ever) if they must know. :)

i gave mostly threes and fours for the ward staff. and when it came to the Clinical Instructor portion, i gave her nothing more than a two, and mostly ones.

example:

Clinical Instructor Feedback

1. How approachable? 1* 2 3 4 5
2. How explainatory? 1* 2 3 4 5
3. How TALKATIVE? 1 2 3 4 5*

okay, the last one was an exaggeration. but it's true. she's the longest winded of a woman, ever. and she's NEVER there. i rarely see her. soo rare, that she's almost of non-existance to us. and best thing?

SHE WROTE BAD COMMENTS FOR US.

how can that be? she's never around to assess our skills. i.e. Wound Dressing, Naso-gastric Tube Feeding, Injections, Oral Medications.... and she wrote comments like, "requires to improve on wound dressing skills."

WELL HELLO, MRS MOUSE-FACED. firstly, you NEVER assessed my Wound Dressing before. you never saw that i was doing dressing almost the whole day the other day, and all the other dressings which i was so confident of doing because it's already something so chickenfeet for me.. and you dare say i need to improve on my dressing skills?!

you mofo. not only me, but the other girls too. and you even had almost the same comments for everyone else. i bet you just read through the previous postings' comments from our previous CI (who are definitely more approachable and better) and just wrote something along that line.

if not, how the heck she knows if im a pleasant and caring student? i thought i always give her that sulkiest face i could ever make of my pretty face (nyahaha) whenever she walks by.

oh, she's a liar. a big fat liar. and everytime we see her, everyone will hate it. just the sight of her, much less her VOICE. her monotonous DRAGGY nyonya voice. GOD, i mustve piled up truckfull of sins having said all these.

but it's true. honest.

SO I GUESS, she's the MAIN and probably the only reason that this posting has to suck. because other than that, this posting's has been a lot of fun and eye-opening opportunities for all of us. and it's been three great weeks.

20.07.07 will probably wrap up my postings so far in Changi General Hospital. because i'm going to ask for a hospital change (if i can) to Tan Tock Seng Hospital. though, memories in CGH will always be by me. :) forever, and ever.

To all the people who made my postings so fun in Changi General Hospital, i'm glad we've met and worked together. if there's any wrongs in me in my speech, actions or body language whatsoever, i hope you guys forgive me okay! i'll always love you all. everyone of you!

MWACKS*
NUROOL. :)

the morning people #1.

the morning people #2.

the afternoons #1.

the afternoons #2.

memories will stick like glue. oh, elephant glue... in me. :)

due due dueee...

2007-07-18T20:36:00.001+08:00

it's the second last day tmrw. and i'm on afternoon shift. (: finally, two days of waking up waaaaaaay later than usual for my attachments. ahh~ that's rly nice.

anyhoots, posting's been okay. i wont say it was fantastic (like it was in W47, because it really was) but i wont say it downright sucked either. it had a fair share of both good and bad sides to it. just that, it's so much more relaxed.

well, a B2 class. what do you expect? with almost all my patients sooo ambulant (most of them were admitted for appendicitis/diverticulitis/etc.) and the only one not, in my cubicle, is a fractured NOF patient who's tied down with a traction. i bet if she's without the traction, she'll be running joyfully up and down the ward.

she's so cute. (:

dressings and dressings. i did two (assisted the SN & EN in one of which) one-hour dressing -each- and that took up most of my mornings already, last week. and on that particular day itself, i didn't do any parameters taking AT ALL for the whole shift. by the time i was done with one dressing, it was waaaay over the break time. and i went for a forty minute break and skipped the other twenty minutes i had left with on the next patient with that pretty huge patch of wound.

awwww, this ward gives me a pretty shitload of experiences. and the ENs i tell you. well i'd rather keep the remark to myself because learning the consequence you face from all the wrong things you "say" gets to you back, in the end, i'd rather blog it elsewhere. ...or just shush about it.

matters rest.

SO. how i feel about this posting?
firstly, i feel pretty pissed at the CI for being a biscuit. she's RARELY there and never approachable. and when she assesses you, she ARGUES with you. so what's the point? her ego is bigger than her mouse-face head. so let's just say, ignorance is bliss.

NYP paid her 3freakingthousand(plus) dollars to look after us, and she's happily skimping her time with the Ward stuff. OHMYGOD. you're totally wasting our school fees, much more MINE!

hah. we joked that her husband is rarely there for her to get showered with some love, so she's taking it out on us. yeah, because she has to wake up every morning looking after her kid (she's just got back from maternity leave) because her husband probably cant stand her already. which i totally think so, too.

if im her husband, i'd be found dead next to her. and even so, i bet she'll still be rambling about, talking non-stop to a corpse.

stupid freak.

NOTE TO SELF: exams is in four weeks. with only THREE papers! ace this, nurool. try and start earlier. (: & make study dates with MEYAA LARLING!

AND THERE'S THREE FREAKING ICAs TO BE COMPLETED (AND PRESENTED, DUH) IN THE FIRST TWO WEEKS OF SCHOOL, STARTING NEXT WEEK.

oh, good luck with that nurool.

im off.
ROOL.

# sorry heh, long time no update.

so long~ it was sooooooo long ago.

2007-07-08T22:57:00.000+08:00

hello, dusty land.

today's been bad. thunders threatening my day, fake pitterpatters on my window pane, dark gloomy sky overhauling the pretty sun. oh gosh, it's just going to rain since just now, but tak jadi jadi.

anyways. my week's been okay.

wow. two more weeks to go. 10 more days. starting tmrw. and it's the submission of my case study to the long-fucking-winded Serene, my CI this time round. HOW UNLUCKY. seems like its getting worst as the postings go by.

ahh wells~

anyways.. ive finally completed the case study IN A DAY! well muchos gracias to momo for helping me out, kindar, with the pathophysiology and all. im fucked up, listening to that word over and over again.

and to KT too for lending me your nursing diagnosis book and the drug guide (which i didnt use). ;D but i still greatly appreciate it.

afternoon shift tomorrow. hopefully i can wake up. i've got a thing for waking up on time (and before time) nowadays. i meant, on working days - meaning on the days that im working, for the attachments. pretty surprising though, it must be the sleep. i sleep earlier and it does really pay alot (:

and thanks to my clever brain, i always make momo call me 15 minutes after my alarm time so that when i wake up before the alarm goes off, i just have to wake up to his call again. extra fifteen minutes of sleep. great.

yes, i know. this entry is totaly going nowhr. and im so aimless right now because i feel like ive been needing to blog. but as usual.. whenever i do after a long long time from not doing so, my brains got crashed and there you have,

MY ENTRY FOR A COMEBACK.

:D goodnight, lovers.
ROOL.

my first....

2007-06-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

i really love my spankin' new shoes!

.
.
.
.
.
.
.

Chatham Champion Luxe Sneaker

the pretty box, top.

the pretty box, inside.

my spankin' sneakers!

even the wrappings had KEDS on it.

the sole imprint

the side tag

front view

side view (okay, dont mind the towel.. really)

back view

spankin' pretty!

let's see how it looks on me:

take #1.

take #2.

GREAT. <3

THANKYOUBABY!
iloveyou*

((:

once bitten, twice... never shy!

2007-06-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

sometimes you make me wonder, how much older you've become... (:

if all else fails, you've got my back,
mhdnurhakm.

i love you (:

Love in B/W

2007-06-27T21:36:00.000+08:00

mhdnurhakm&nrlhda.

here are some of the photos of my cycling with hakeem, my dearest brother.
enjoy!

my pretty bike (:

shot #2

little miss chatterbox & the pumpkin!

through the wheels

yo, it's us.

trying very hard to pose in the last 1 sec

cutest smiles(:

nothing can compare him to the rest!

there he is, the boy of every little girl's dreams!

ROOL. (:

dear baby...

2007-06-21T02:17:00.001+08:00

get well soon. ♥

my (favourite) green bike

2007-06-20T23:23:00.001+08:00

oh, i so love it now that my bike's all done up. yeap, i could've done it all on my own if i had the proper tools, and parts which are not spoilt (on my bike's side). i dont know how long i have abandoned that bike, which i got when i was 9. or was it, 10? oh my god. i think it's 9 years old. crap, i love this thing!

mom said uncle royston bought it for 800 bucks (yeah, it's a gift! for me!). wow, i cannot be anymore luckier than this. i mean, who'd waste 800 bucks on a bike that was given to a silly fat girl who dont really know how much 800 bucks could be? uncle royston would. and i felt so happy! so what if it's 800 dollars, then? it's my treasure baby.

it's more like, 100 bucks worth now in such a "poor" condition like this. i mean, i haven't touched it at all since we moved to yew tee man! wow. 4 years (additional 1 year from bishan, with all that busy bumble bee, kindar) has passed and i finally did something to my poor 'ol bike! hmm.. i shall give it a name.

suggestions, anybody?

yeap, a name for my green baby. i'm up for anything! as long as it's cute, hip and funky. heheheheh.

momo's falling sick now. and im stuck (well, almost) with a splitting headache that can really come and go. it kills me. tsk. and i dont understand why. i had it the other day and felt pretty fine after popping in two panadol extra (which i usually dont, until i really cannot take it, but dont wna go visit the docs) and a cold shower.

and now it's coming back. dangs. shoo, headache.. not now. not ever! x(

oh bytheway, i brought hakeem out for a short cycling trip just now. more like, a cycle down to limbang to get my bike fixed and off to play around a little with it since its been so long i stepped on the paddle, and cycle.

aww. :( my bike really needs a lot of servicing. i hope to get it done before it gets a little too haywired. i need to get my baby okay again! yes, both my baby(s) - i hate to say babies because they really sound like babies. haha - my green bike & momo. get well soon baby!...baby(s)!

i love you both.

& hakeem, my dear brother too.

Little Miss Chatterbox

2007-06-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

hello, meet my new "pendant", my green engraved skateboard.
it's so pretty, i can't take my eyes off it.
being the girl who LOVES to put almost anything she sees onto her necklace,
this new little thing becomes another of her pendant.

it says Little Miss Chatterbox, if you cant see. ;D I'm proud of it.
& thanks to Dad who engraved it for me!

THANK YOU DAD!

this is the back of it! ;D
it bears my name - NUROOL.

this is little brother's.
and that is the top, with his name - HAKEEM.

and this is the back of his silver skateboard.
bearing his nickname - PUMPKIN!
hahahaha how cute. ;D

oh, i love love love them pretty skateboards!

ROOL

im sorry, i did not mean to hurt my little girl.

2007-06-18T16:32:00.001+08:00

it's beyond me.

i cannot carry the weight of a heavy world.
so goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight,
goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight...

hope that things will get alright.

so much to learn, so much to learn
but i wont be there to teach you.
i know i can be close
but i'll try my best to reach you.

im so sorry.. i did not mean to hurt my little girl.

....goodnight, my little girl.

have you..

2007-06-18T16:29:00.000+08:00

ever hated to see someone,
that you hate to even see the picture,
or even listen to people talking about that someone,
and even ASK of that someone.

have you?

have you ever felt like, really really, YeUcK!-ed because of that particular one, but you dont really have a choice but to keep seeing that someone, somehow?

oh my god,

I HAVE.

sponsorship.

2007-06-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

I'm still not sure if I can get it or not. The interview went pretty fine, I guess. But it's my results she(Lay Hoon, my interviewer)'s worried of. And I think that if I don't work hard, for this, I'm never being able to get that sponsorship I want from TTSH.

:( sad, I know. But that's to a girl who gets bored easily with words, books, and memorising stuffs. I'm a practical girl, man. Much more of a hands-on girl. I can't take no books and words to be processed to be remembered in my brains. It suck.

I'm blogging in the middle of the night because I can't sleep. And it's becoming more apparent that I can't sleep even more, tuning into Yazz on Class 95FM, Love Songs.

I remembered being so tuned in and in love with that programme because it's just nice to listen to slow ballads and maybe slow rock to bring me through the night, and stuffs... well that was before I was attached and had no one to talk to at night.

Momo's now peacefully asleep in his bed, having silly dreams of himself maybe whilst I'm here, sitting on my bed typing this out, at the same time watching my battery level - just in case it goes flat without me knowing - all because I can't sleep.

:(

Our waffles at Gelare last Tuesday.

Oh, back to TTSH. Lay Hoon asked me a favour.. that's after much questions asked like why I wanted TTS, how come my grades are like that, did I think that that was my best results or not, and that why I chose Nursing... - at that question, I tried to be as inspirational as possible, haha, and I think it worked. :D

but anyways, I knew I couldn't make it... now. So Lay Hoon asked me a favour. And that is, for my coming exams in around August, she wants me to do REALLY WELL and give me BEST SHOT so that I can have outstanding results. And with that, she wants me to mail in again my results (she even get the HR lady to write me the address I should send it to, on a small piece of torn paper) with a promise that she made, which is to look into my review again.

She also added that she'll put me under "Provisional Employment". Which means to say, I'm shortlisted and on the KIV list, in considering the sponsorship. Until then, my fate depends on how I spend the rest of my holidays.

I NEED TO START STUDYING!

...that is after I catch, Fantastic Four: The Rise of The Silver Surfer. :D oh, I can't wait!

I caught Shrek 3 just now and it was HILLARIOUS. I cannot believe that I find myself laughing out loud, even with the popcorn in my mouth, half chewed. Oh my God. Haha. And Justin Timberlake sure sound sexy still as King Arthur, in the show. Ohh, it's such a good movie with all the twists and funny scenes.

(: Definitely better than the second one.

just before Shrek 3. In the toilet. (:

Momo's mom is going to take leave this coming Monday to go Geylang. She's asked Mo to ask me along, if I can/want. Wow, how long ago is it that I've stepped into Geylang? Minus that time when I went over to Sengkang for a sleep over and Dad brought us to the hot scorching Geylang to look for food, because the SingPost is nearer there.

Oh, pfft.

And, mama (my aunt) is asking me to tag along to Bugis Street to shop. Haha. I'm such a high demand! :D

I was bored and had a lil bit of time during my group discussion yesterday. So I decided to paste my cutesy stickers all over my keyboard. So now, my spacebar has four stickers, my enter has a cute HORSE, my backspace has a pretty RAINBOW, my Esc button has two cherries, the Acer word under the screen has two fishes facing it with bubble-like-thing pasted also, at the top of my screen has a Happy Circus sticker, on the lid of my laptop, I have my 3logy sticker by Singtel, Topshop/Topman sticker tape on it as well.

And I'm so proud of myself. :D Yes, for destroying something with pretty stickers. Well, it MAKES ME HAPPY!!!

ANDDDDDDD.......

...I've yet to meet Lelaa for some photo-loving!
And Meyaa for some catching up! & sleepover? (PLS, DARLING SOON!)
And Yong-yao for some coffee, seriously.
And Hanif for catching up AND coffee!!! (oi, msg me la!)
And Carisa/Nikki for a date-out together.
And Mubz, Siti, Syu for movie marathon!!!!!!!!!
And Fyra & Naq for lunch/dinner AND catching up! (promise girls, no talk on what's past. it's OVER. for good. :D)

And and and and....... so many more!~

Anyways, I've got nothing else to blog now. So bored, maybe I shall go sleep now.

And so here's a few random pictures, and veryyyy backdated ones, too! Just, scroll and see lah okay? BYE!

GOODNIGHTS!
rool. <3.

LOL

2007-06-13T16:15:00.000+08:00

-[ Asyraf ]-

Started the first legal gang

'What" will you be remembered for?' at QuizGalaxy.com

bedek tak agak!

HAHA
ROOL.

shameless brat.

2007-06-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

What would you do, if a person who's such a jerk leaves you just like that after all those promises he made to say he'll never leave you and ends up 1. BREAKING the promise and 2. DATE ANOTHER GIRL.

Just so much after that, you see him with that bitch, fooling around, playing cutesy games like you did the last time when you were together with him, making you all angry and disgusted and end up like a crying fool in your room.

Tears wasted, words left unspoken, hearts broken, emotions raged; pure disbelief, hatred blooming. EVERYTHING was a tumble...

And just as you were about to recuperate, that FUCKER who dumped you comes back to text you a message, wishing you "Happy 1 year & 1 month", pushing you off that fucking cliff that you fell off when he walked out on you... AGAIN.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

If you ask me, when I see him, I'd tear his face apart, kick his balls, pluck out his nipples, stab his ass and then slap him HARD on his fucking face, and spit him on the ground.

ARGH, such a jerk.

Then I'll bring that bitch to that dead fucker on the ground, and say "And THAT'S what I just did to him. You should thank me, really.."

And then slap her face,

...just for the fun of it.

IRGH, guys like him IRKS ME.

BIG TIME.

a Llama?????

2007-06-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

-[ Nurul ]-

Mated successfully with a Llama

'What will you be remembered for?' at QuizGalaxy.com

what? fuck a llama?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

this sure cracks me up.

NO, seriously.

IMAGINE: ME + LLAMA + .....fucking.

OH, HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

ROOL,
the llama fucker! :D

- thanks Lelaa! -

sponsorship....

2007-06-11T15:54:00.000+08:00

TTSH just called me!
& I feel so jittery all of a sudden.

I don't know why I'm feeling like I need this bond,
yet I don't really want it because...

..there's so much reasons that string along with it,
and it's not right to say it here, though.

TTSH, HR Department, Level 1. 4pm.

..sharp.

..TOMORROW.

I need to get my 'O' Level cert, Medical Reports
& my Semestrial Exam results (Year 1 - sem 1/2) ready,
and bring it along with me.

CRAP man.

How can I get a sponsorship when my GPA is only 2.
Yes, buggass.. only 2 for heaven's sake.
And that I'm a freaking 23-pointer girl (w/o CCA points)
for the 'O' Levels... this will reflect a lot, man.
Sigh,

& I've got a bad feeling on this... really.
Pretty sad about my results though I would want to work harder.

Sighsighsigh.

I don't know what to do.
Should I go or not?

A part of me (60%) tells me I should, because it secures me
a job and a place in the very competitive Nursing World,
and that for attachments, I don't have to go SO FAR to CGH to work.
Plus, I get incentives of allowance every month, and and...

that is IF I get the sponsorship.

sigh.

But the other 40% of me tells me I shouldn't,
and it seems like 40% weighs twice as heavier.
I know..

I should feel happy about this,
but I'm not

exactly feeling happy.

I really wish everything will turn out fine.
Oh, TTSH, please tell me I'll get a job there.
& that everything will be alright for me.

I know it's pretty bad to not consult mommey first,
but I know how it'll be if she messes around too much.
She can just twist my interest if she thinks I'm not doing
good enough, or that she doesn't like it.

Oh, how AUTHORITY is of such great power.

But afterall, SHE IS the one who has to be my guarantor.
So she DOES have a part in this.

Sigh,
I really hope I can get through this.

kene bodek banyak sikit lah akuuu....
ROOL.

bored? here's what to do.

2007-06-10T00:33:00.000+08:00

Now, if you're the kind who're bored and have nothing better to do at some late nights that you can't sleep. Why not try BP Gas Mania! It's a cutesy game where you have to just bring your customers to the petrol station and let them fill their tanks! They can also order stuff from the convenience store, like lollipops, milk carton, sandwich or even coffee! Easy?

Not really.. as the game progresses into the different levels, it gets tougher. You have to then satisfy your customer (who can get really impatient, especially the "expensive looking cars" one.. oh you know how it gets..) with the different things you have (i.e. Air Pump and Car Wash) which you really need to make use of(in my case to stall for some time)!

So, go on. Try it. There's 14 levels altogether, and it's very addictive (though I really find the background music abit irritating but it doesn't distract you though becuase you're too engrossed in meeting your customer's needs.)

It can get really unfair for just ONE PERSON (you) to be serving up to 7 cars at once (5 at the stations, and two at the Air Pump and Car Wash). It can get really tricky at some point, so beware but have fun!

This game might leave you sweating in stress but it also gives you the satisfaction after you've accomplished each level.

I rate this game: * * * * *

This is for catching my attention and definitely kills my boredom for say, half an hour? Yes. Go master it, and don't forget to meet your "Goal" before you can move on to the next level!

GOODLUCK!

(click link below for this game!)

BP Gas Mania

Keep your customers happy!

Play this free game now!!

Love,
Rool.

(How do I do for a game review/recommendation, aye? Hehh.)

the warmth of hearts :)

2007-06-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

This was what she said to me....

Lelaa: If I were to be as good as dead tomorrow, God forbid, what would you always remember me for?

Me: I'd remember you as the girl with such strong abilities despite that shy front you portray. And if you were a legend, I'd call you 'the mysterious girl aka your bestfriend'. :) till then, take care my dearest lalat.

a few hours later..

nurool ♥ babycakes. says:
now then. what would you think of me as? :)

STUDYYY..then bite you..GRRR says:
shit my brain crashed

nurool ♥ babycakes. says:
hahahah :D

STUDYYY..then bite you..GRRR says:
too much to mention

nurool ♥ babycakes. says:
take your time

nurool ♥ babycakes. says:
youve got a whole lifetime, mine that is.

STUDYYY..then bite you..GRRR says:
i will remember you as the girl whose presence is enough to make anybody's day. a joy to have around, a loyal friend indeed. sometimes i think youre too good to be true. too good for me.

... and my heart smiled. :)

So here's to you, my dearest Nurlela Ismiley.

No matter how often we speak, or more like how much we don't, I'll always be there. Because even if we don't see each other in a month, you know there's always a special place inside my heart, just right where you belong. One small spot, snuggly and warm just for you. Not too spacious, not too crammed but just right because since day 1 that I knew you, I know... I've found a true friend.

One that'll listen to my heart's content.
One that'll make me laugh whenever I'm sad.
One that'll ask me out randomly, which makes me smile.
One that'll always be there for me.
One that'll never fail exchange hugs with me each time we meet.
& definitely, One that'll never leave my side even if the world falls down on me.

Nurlela, there's so much my heart can keep on saying/pouring. But sadly words limits a lot of these feelings. But no matter what, I want you to know that even if I don't meet you, call you, talk to you, as often as I can, there'll be no other Nurlela that can take up that space you already have in my heart. Even if she looks exactly like you,

because there's only one of you in my world of friends. and you're one of the truest. and with this, I'd like to say...

I Love You, Nurlela Ismail. :)

Love,
ROOL.

angel in disguise.

2007-06-08T00:10:00.000+08:00

we both love our smiles (:

ROOL.

funny shit.

2007-06-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

oh, just being random.

BUT I LOVE THE GATSBY RUBBER WAX AD!

cracks me up everysingle time!

& the song is damn catchy!
Carisa recorded the ad on her mobile phone.
MY GOD.

haha, Mo's friends set them as ring tones.
LOL!!!

funny shit la.

oh, and i miss my phone. my baby. my precious.
i had a dream about it.
not that it was talking to me.
but it was there, in the shelf of the handphone shop.

and it wouldnt be returned to me.
how sad! :(

i wish i can get a better phone, soon.
i'm not complaining about 3230...... yet.

okay bye!

ROOL.

sweetheart of a pill...

2007-06-08T00:02:00.000+08:00

I love this design.

It's been so long since I used a blogskins template. And this one looks so damn cute. First look and I fell in love!

Oh wells. Just a random update.

12.03AM now and I'm turning in.

Goodluck for your test tmrw at 9am, baby. I know you can do it.

I love you,
Rool. ♥

now you tell me

2007-06-07T23:25:00.001+08:00

take one.

take two.

So how now brown cow?

I kept feeling like it's not okay. Like, it's not the same like the one I saw reflected on the mirror at Tony & Guy's Academy. I look kinda, different. Maybe it's the curls. Haha, they loved my NATURAL CURLS!

For God's sake! Who ever loved them? Well, I didn't really, though. Felt that it was a pile of mess. My hair (before this) was all flat & boring, without much volume and it's all pulling my face down and make me like a cow.

Yeah, cow.

And that's what Roy (the professional) said, too. He said my hair hasn't much of layering and it's shapeless. That's why I look all tired and very dragged down with the weight of that loonnnnngggggg hair, almost mono-length.

Those "layered" ends weren't even qualified to be called layered. Those are just thinned ends that have worn out. Yeah, and it's kinda... spoilt. TSK.

But anyways, Roy & Rey (my stylist) fixed my hair problems! Because "We're like doctors. They come to us with problems with their hair, we fix it." - Roy.

He's quite handsome by the way. Just that his blonde hair and tattoo turns me off.

Anyways, this complimentary haircut is like.. an event whereby hairstylists from all over the world (mine's from Philippines) come to Singapore, Tony and Guy for some exchange programme or something. They cut our hair, at the same learning styles and techniques too!

So we're like the MODELS. (: How flattering, I know. Many'd say "OMG, they'll ruin my hair! It already is looking like a cow, now they're going to make it into a BULL!" Oh feck you.

COME ON, Roy (the Tony & Guy professional) is there to assist all these hairstylists along the way. So if your hair get screwed, chin up! Profs are there to mend the broken pieces. If it's not so bad, your mane'll be lovely. If it is, TOO BAD. you've got SHORTER hair. HAHA.

Okay, just being MEAN.

So the whole thing was like totally fun. I reached there at 2pm sharp with Siti & Fana (my model hunter. haha) and got seated in less than 15 minutes. We were consulted as to how we wanted our new look to be like, and what kind of a hairstyle are you looking for.

I looked for a hairstyle that gives me much volume, and less bore. And also, for it to look pretty but not so hard to maintain.

Roy thought I should keep the length of my hair.. because he don't want to destroy everything and make me go home without anything covering my shoulders. :D So, he took out his whiteboard marker, and started drawing funny shapes on the mirror, which I couldn't understand at all. Weird lines and everywhere.

My stylist, Rey was kinda Mr Metro-soft, but he was lovely! With 7 years of experience, I was pretty much at ease throughout the whole process. Unlike the girl next to me who mouthed 'HELP!' to her friend who was apparently ignoring her! HAHA. It was funny la to see her face cringing up, just because her stylist don't look pretty much as confident as mine.

She didn't know that Roy would mend it all for her la should anything turn bad! And hey, he's not so bad after all! Quite good, passed all the parts and was kinda cute (also a Phillipene guy). So, just CHILL man!

Anyways, Roy suggested that he layer my hair like LITERALLY! Pump up some volume so that the shorter length would fluff up a lil and since my hair's wavy, it's just bonus. (:

He also said that I should keep my fringe because it's already nice. Only a lil alteration la (I daren't say that I cut my own fringe! Because I realised there're some UGLY hair sticking out. OMG. So heh.. I just shutted my gap!) which is not so bad... and he calls it 'slicing' by the way.

WOO~ hair terminology. Cool.

Back to my hair... After all that drawing on the mirror and funny terms they use to 'go about cutting my mane', I was finally brought to WASH MY HAIR! Ohhh, my favourite part of hair cutting. (:

Rey's kinda rough though but I loved it. He really washed my hair with added massage and all that cooling pepermint-y effect on your scalp. I felt like I haven't bathed for 10 years to feel such lovely pleasure! Whoa. <3

Ohh, and I always LOVE hair washes was the water reaches right at the top of your neck, with the cold water trickling down and all that touch to your scalp at your most sensitive area, makes my goosepimples almost popping out of my skin and send electric shocks all the way down my spine.

I had to stretch properly so that the shocks won't really get to me. HAHA. Kinda freaky but I like it!~

Wash wash wash, I'm all set & ready for my haircut. Yay! I'm finally removing all my split & spoilt ends. I'm so happy. Whee.......................................

Rey made a zig-zag on my head. Wow, cool. That was to create the layer effect. Ahh, and he started off buy cutting the left side of my head first, then right. And each side, he goes by segments. Small, rectangular segments. Damn cool. I was awed myself.

There was even ways to check if your stylist cut your hair correctly or not! I can't explain here but it was cool la. Rey was pretty confident with the scissors and his angles and and and.... the parting side and everything, so I wasn't so worried. Because Roy kept, "cut right, stand left. cut left, stand right! ahh ahh.. check your angle! look at the mirror, follow your guideline!" at the other people (more) as compared to Rey.

So yeah, (:

Cut cut cut, check check check, snip snip snip. My haircut was OVER! Roy checked once and Rey was through! He made it! I was so delighted. And couldn't contain my smile anymore so I grinned from ear to ear as I was the one who made him won. Well, I was the WOMAN behind that MAN (Rey) <s>though he's not exactly like one</s> but it's okay (: Hehh.

Time to blow dry my hair. Hot hot hot, I felt like my brain was melting. BUT IT WAS COOL! Because they used a diffuser to blow dry my hair! It's a kind of filter looking inverted cone shaped thing, attached to the hair dryer where you just stuff your hair and blow it dry, to emphasise on your volume but more of your curls. (:

Too bad it was only temporary. I wished I could've natural bigger curls, instead of wavy hair. So that my hair would be PERFECT! But noo, I'm not complaining! I love my hair already.

Now I wish to go again to trim shorter. Haha, just for the fun of it! And I'm glad I could be the one to give Lelaa her free haircut soon! YAY!

Mommey's coming along too. Maybe Nina. I could pull Anna in to fix her hair, as well and probably get everybody's hair fixed prettily! :D

When everything's over, Rey took a photo with me and OF me, with his proud smile and repeating the words: 'my creation'..... for the 1029392947th time. Well, it IS pretty.. I must say, and I'm glad my hair's fixed!

If only it look like how it looked like, in the academy itself, now, I'd be the happiest, but it's okay. I shall get my replacement shampoo and mousse, and curling cream and maybe a new set of hair dryer and that diffuser thing as well! HAHA.

SO RICH AR?

tsk, if only i'm THAT into it. tak kuaser akuu..

Lelaa's going to shoot me come on of the days during the two-week break! She BOOEKD me already! Haha. So watch out for my own port folio!

And guess what? Momo is getting himself into my port folio too! Ohhh, I can't wait!!

OH, by the way.. here's a photo of my pedicure! Hehe. Don't mind the poor camera quality, yeah!

The design on my right toe abit cacat lah, just one dot!

but it spoilt the balance.

Oh wells! Hehh.

It's late, will update more soon!

Mo's waiting me up to finish 60 crunches in FIVE MINUTES (what the hell!) before I can sleep. And I can't cheat. He's a psychic. Hahaha.

ROOL.

(I know my hair's abit cannot see, cannot see one but try to make do with it k! And, COMMENT! Love you people!)

i miss my bunny ):

2007-06-05T23:09:00.001+08:00

seriously random.

I JUST MISS MY BUNNY ):

It's COMING!

2007-06-05T18:52:00.001+08:00

Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5

It's coming! THE TWO WEEKS BREAK! Wow, three more days to go. I can't wait!

Let's see... in this two weeks, I'm going to..

- JOGGING. (kena dragged by Momo!!)
- go ice-skating
- catch Shrek 3 & Fantastic Four 2!
- sleepover at Mama's
- sleepover at Meyaa's & have some girly issues! :D
- catch up with my lovely people; anipp, yy.. COFFEE!
- DO PRESENTATION
- study.

Yeah, Mo already booked me for morning jogs EVERYDAY. Since I'm gaining on the kilos, and keep complaining about it without doing anything to it. So... yeah, now HE's going to do something about it, for me. Haha.

Meanwhile, I'm going for a free haircut at Tony & Guy Academy. Haha, you know one of those free haircutting session they give for the public, when their students just graduated & stuff? Yeah...

Mommey said don't let them ruin my hair. Well, I've been thinking on having a haircut since I cut my own fringe & now that I've got a chance (thanks to Fana!) I can have a haircut for FREE! Hehh.

Oh, & I've got two more complimentary ticket. Any case you want, tag me! Heh, but it'll be first-come-first-serve basis kays! (:

YAY! There's pizza today! Hawaian pizza, my all-time favourite classic choice! Yeah, and I brought some to school just now and gave some to Uncle Rahim (who sells Malay Food in the North Canteen of NYP) since it's his last day vending at NYP.

SAD, i know. Very.. no more hearty servings, warmly smiles & silly jokes, & sometimes, free lunch (heh). It'll be different la. How sad. Considering Uncle Rahim is such a nice person despite his craziness & curly wurly hair! Haha.

So anyways, after school I met Momo & headed down to Novena for the Square Mall or something like that. Yeah, and guess what? I FINALLY DID MY PEDICURE! Yay. (: I'm so happy happy. And there's free nail art on two toes.. which is on my two big toes. Yay. Kinda pretty la the nail art, just that I'm not used to having nail art so it kinda attracted a lot of attention from me & my dad.

He was like, "kenapa ni ada putih putih kat kaki? (why is there some whitish thing on your toes?)" Lol, I just said, "it's nail art for fun!" hehhs.

The new mall was pretty okay. Just that it's only 80% done up. Still a bit more to go. (: Hah, before I had my pedicure just now, I went to the shop at level 2. I guess there was only ONE manicurist at such a small place, it was "busy" at the moment (with just one customer though). So, I had to come back fifteen to thirty minutes later... Well, I was nice and left my name and contact number down. Only to never return. Haha.

The one I had pedi was so much nicer with comfy seats and beautiful ambience. All hot red & sassy. (: Lovely. So I went in and forgot all about the previous shop. Few minutes later, she called back and said I could go down already. All I said was, "sorry, can I shop a little more?" She said, "sure,". And she was. Hahaha, I switched off my phone - because the battery was FLAT - and never came back.

:D sorry la hor.

Bubble tea was nice! After soo long, only thing that it's a lil bland. And it's $1.90. EXPENSIVE! Haha. Male workers cannot bubble the tea! tsktsktsk.

Oh ya, I CALLED TONY & GUY ALREADY! Forgot to mention la. So yeah, my appointment is at 2pm tmrw, all the way at their academy at Bugis. Wow-wee. Can't wait though, though the whole process will take TWO HOURS. One hour of which, will be used as consultation time to talk about your HAIR.

Something new. (:

So, perky or rather, prettier hairstyle for me starting tmrw. I hope. *crosses toes, pretty new pedicure-d toes! HEH* wee!

I wore my Topshop top which I share with mommey (so obviously the top is of HER SIZE, times another half of mine please) to school today and almost everyone said I looked pregnant and/or as if I just woke up from bed - pyjamas. But it's cute though because I also look floaty. HEHE.

OH OH OHHH! My sweet Momo finally bought me that bag I've been dying for! OHMYGOD. I was so blushed and shy la when he asked me to choose. I kept hiding behind his back and urgh, I don't know why I was so shy. LOL. First proper present, aye? Aww.. thnkyouu baby, ILY loads! :D

Grandma looks alot better, I'm so glad. She can stop her antibiotics soon already, and all she needs is abit more personal physiotherapy at home to make her work her knees and lower limb muscles so that she can walk at least almost like before, WITHOUT her walking stick.

I hope it's soon! :D

Okay, I'm off.
ROOL! (:

IM A HAPPY GIRL!

i hope

2007-06-03T16:48:00.000+08:00

i hope...

to get bonded with TTSH soon.
to ace tmrw's Bio Prac Exam.
to start studying for the Bio Prac Exam.
to get that bag I really wanted soon.
to watch Fantastic Four as soon as it's out.
to paint my toe/fingernails if I've got the time.
to have more sleepovers at Mama's.
to SLEEPOVER at Meyaa's.
for nenek to get well soon!
to be able to keep a KITTEN!
- I've been seeing so many cute kittens with their tiny paws and cute innocent face, and their sharp pointy ears. DAMN. fucking cute!
to have a new MMC card.
to REALLY START STUDYING NOW.
to apologise to baby as soon as I finish blogging.
- I'm supposed to be studying.
yeah, and to really go off now.

BYE!

ROOL.

mess.

2007-06-01T00:16:00.001+08:00

Goodnight, goodnight - Maroon 5

my room's in a complete mess.
from dust, to hair, to erasings, to bags to paper bags, to plastic bags, to papers, to notes, to books, to accesories, to roll-ons, to..... everything you can find in your room. yes, except in my room, it's all topsy-turvy.

feel like it's time to clean up.
and actually, i felt that eons ago. but my lazy ass won't want to stand up and start picking up. seriously, ive been such a lazy brat, a busy bee, and a tired girl. piles and piles of things-to-be-done is not anywhere near completion, yet deadlines are catching up faster than my eyes could blink. i hate it.

i hate it, when there's so much to do and so little time to do. it makes me feel like giving up. and guess what? giving up seems a lot more easier to do, and in my case: eating. fuck, you should've seen my appetite man. i don't know what happened that made my appetite grow to the size of a normal Shrek you see. (not that there are abnormal ones...) and honestly, it's freaking me out, more than a woman with long hair, floating around your house with wormy face, could do.

in one day, i ate so much things. at one meal, i ate like that of three. and snacks, my God. who the hell created such heavenly little things? me and my cousin had half a tub of Mocha Ice-Cream with Almond Sices and Chocolate Chips all to ourselves. best thing, i was having a sore-throat. and once i started eating, i cannot stop. every little thing i see, i had a tooth of it. ow...

and it does'nt help being so remorseful at it(eating shitloads) but still not doing anything at it. i guess that's what "procrastination" means. boo hoo hoo.

let's see (in order of priority, 1 being the highest):

HS 2043 Clinical Skills Exam - tmrw.

Study for that damn thing, tmrw. =X

Completion of presentation slides by tmrw.

Studying for the damn Bio Prac Exam by Sunday, or latest MONDAY!

HS 2081 Biology Practical Exam - Monday.

Finalise everything of ICA slides, latest Monday (before tut)

HS 2118 Develepmental Psychology Presentation (ICA) - Monday.

that's a whole shit chunk of it. i'm going crazy. we could've started on the presentation slides, WAAAAAAAY earlier. when there was opportunity to meet. but we didn't. argh, last minute rubbish. thank God it's almost three-quarters done. a lil more here & there, and hopefully nobody will come up and change everything upon near completion.

i'll chop his/her boobs/dick off with a chopper, then slice it into cubes and let little piglets eat and then shit back the same damn thing and smack it right into their faces.

anyways, i was supposed to go meet Hans/Anipp/Hanif my dude for coffee last wednesday, okay yesterday la, but it was cancelled because we were both rushing for time and if we were to carry on with coffee, not much catching up could be done. we could only meet for an hour or so only. how sad. so i hope in this two-weeks break we could meet up a day and go catch up & crap again! (:

Momo is throwing down food from his room, in a plastic bag that is, to his brother downstairs who is feeding a little kitten with two big cats (i suppose thats its parents) making a parachute -hopefully it happens- with the plastic bag at 12.09AM in the morning right now. and apparently, his brother is downstairs, feeding the cat with another woman (whom Mo claims to be a cat lover as well) and he's not back yet. i wonder if he remembers that there's a bag of parachuted-flown plastic bag on the ground, waiting for the contents to be fed to the meows, and not to the woman he sees. HAHA. okay, i'm mean.... and random.

luckily that's his brother downstairs that he's throwing food in plastic bags, to. if it was him, he's just lucky if he does'nt get thrown off from his room, to the 1st storey from the 7th. (: well that is if he's flirting with the cat lover, instead of the CAT itself. heheh.

way past bed-time now. im turning in. i love you people, and here's a shoutout to Meyaa my darling:

BABE! i want to go de-virginise your T20 baby, though i know it's muchos de-virginised already but i don't care. i want to be a part of your new camera soon soon soon! and the sleepover that i hope happens during the two-week break, playing monopoly and whatever other things you bought. and loadsa catching up! i hope you don't go away to KL for two fucking weeks and leave me no space to sleep with you in SG. i miss you babe...

ROOL <3

clarke quay, lights, clouds, the night, and love. (:

2007-05-28T12:34:00.000+08:00

that's the thing about me, you see.

I ALWAYS shop at the wrong time, when everything is still at original price. And and and, when the right time comes, LIKE GSS (HELLO!), I'm broke enough to even STEP into the shopper's paradise.

But it's okay, I finally got a spandex (or whatever you call that top with that rubber thing at your thigh area, yeah..) from Topshop! Yes, it's that one from the picture top above. It's like some winter clothing material where you'll never freeze to death in the cinema... yeah, that kind. Anyways, it's really comfortable though, and really snuggly. (:

Thank God mommey paid that for me. HURRAY! Haha. Poor mom, sixty plus bucks knocked off your dollar bills, saved in your bank! But what's sixty bucks compared to ze lurrvvee you can get from your daughter? HEH HEH.

SO, last friday was me dearest's 18th and according to him, it was the perfect day. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. (I know you want to go "awww" with me too!) I was so glad he loved his present and I'm even more glad that I managed to surprise him! Oh, I'm good. I'm gooooood. :)

I took my time to meet him at Orchard MRT Station because I was afraid his mom will be there as well, so I bounced to Marina Bay and all the way back to Orchard. I felt kinda stupid because I went out of the train that I was in, to take the opposite one but as soon as I stepped out of my train, the opposite one closed it doors on me. GREAT.

So I walked a little bit further and went in the train again, looking rather pleasantly surprised at the amount of empty space (obviously faking it, DUH) they have over at the other cabin as if I' a lost foreigner who alighted at Marina Bay, thinking there'll be a mall near there or something. Oh, farts.

I wore my pretty spandex top with leggins and my new, spanking pretty pumps from River Island (: with a headband and loop earrings. Then I realised, feck, I look ultra-retrofied. The bitches said I looked as if I'm going for some Saturday Night Fever Club or something. Yeah, I'd go only if John Travolta is alot younger and sexylicious in that tight thingys he wore in Grease!.
BUT.... that's out of the point.

I took baby steps and walked slowly towards the birthday boy who was standing near the lift, looking so suave and mighty in that new and sexy red Topman tshirt (: vooom, I was melting... seriously.

He saw me, smiled at me, and analysed me head to toe, hard. "Fuck, he don't like this dressing" I thought. "Happy Birthday, dear" I smiled, trying to hide my nervousness at the intesity of his stare, and that analytical look. "Thank you", came the reply, THEN the smile.. this time, wider. And at that point of time, I knew it, he loves it. HE DOES!

Speechless. That what he was. And all along I thought he's going to devour me anytime for wearing such a pretty thing and looking all retro in it. HAH! Now, you dare devour me... I'll.... I'll... spank your ass.. and.. and... bite your BUTT! BOO.

His mom was on her way, his brother don't know where. And we, were walking around aimlessly, partially trying to find Seoul Garden for lunch, and partially looking around at pretty and cute shoes on the racks. Forget it, they're not anywhere near Orchard Road yet, I reckon so we found a place and sat down.

Snapping pictures.

Like, nobody's business.
Both.
Of.
Us,
feeling very nervous,
to meet
his

MOM.

Freaky sia. I've never met any of my boyfriend's mother. And, and and... I don't know what to expect or give or... or.. or, DO. So I just kept smiling, and sound nice.

We walked into Seoul Garden, and from the corner of my eyes, I saw Mo's brother and right in front of my eyes, there stood his mom, looking so pretty and lovely... And I bet she's also as nervous to meet me. HEH.

And guess what? IT ALL WENT FINE. So much for being scared & everything else unnecessary. Oh pfft.

Food was good. Been quite a while since I dined in there. And the chicken was marvellous. Haha, I'm a chicken ghost... (sadistic one at that, for eating my own meat after I'm dead. SNORTS) hehh.

We all talked. Laughed, smiled, and eat. Ambience was okay, not too noisy nor crowded. Loved it. Felt so warm. And.. sweet (: Soon, Mo's brother had to leave for work. So it's down to three. Me, Momo and his mom. I stood up to take ice-cream and then everyone started having ice-cream. Raspberry with Chocolate Chip Cookie Ice-Cream.

It was Marv. And I had three servings of it.

LUCKILY his mom went to the toilet, because when she did, I purposedly asked Momo to get somemore ice-cream, looking really convincing because that lazy boy confirm won't go if I want it for fun (heh, babe). So when he got his butt off the seat, and out of my sight, I quickly took out that big red box tied with ribbon and a card slotted in between, out and onto his seat. My heart was beating so damn fast because he came back soon after, soon enough that I didn't have the time to keep the plastic bag that I kept that box in. So I just stuff it in between my thighs under the table.

HAHA.

He almost SAT on it, can you imagine?! He didn't even realise there was a bloody present on the seat. Hah! Oblivion. Tsk tsk. But the look on his face when he saw the present? Priceless. Pricefuckingless. I was so touched when I saw how touched, he was. When he held up that present in his hands, and that look in his face, from the present and back to me, smiling and oh, it was all so beautiful.

And we kissed.

Damn, what could be more beautiful? (: I can still smile and aww at the thought of it right now. Dreamy Sigh... Anyways, his mom came back and saw it as well. Oh yea, and I gave him another envelope containing this plastic covered collage that I made at the VERY LAST MINUTE. Hah, I tricked him saying that in it, is my official letter from the In-Charge who rejected my request to transfer hospital. I even wrote my name, admin number, the words: "Nanyang Polytechnic", "By Hand" and "Confidential", at the front. HAHA!! I'm that semangat!

His mom saw that, too... and added, "Eh, I saw all these pictures before! What's new!" Haha, aunty, nothing's new. I hadn't TIME! So yeah, old pictures compiled together, to make a collage. That's new! hehh.

We had somemore food, just a little bit more, and then set off. We walked over to Centrepoint, Robinsons. Just to see, see. Oh went to Takashimaya before that, and I helped his mom choose a pretty wallet for herself. Her current YSL wallet (which is 10 years old) is a little rugged already. And she finally got a pretty cute one, after trying it by putting her gazilion number of cards that she has into the new one, to see if it can be clipped when closed. Oh my god, CUTE PEOPLE. <3!>

Then, Robinsons to look for his brother. But we didn't stay for long, took sweets from him and rushed off to Plaza Singapura for Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End! Collect our booked tickets, bought popcorns&drinks, went to toilet and into the theatre. Snuggled in our seats, and WATCHED THE MOVIE!

It was mega powerful, funny and just PERFECT! Almost three hours of show, my ass was numbed. Thank god Momo was there to distract my numb as for a bit. HAHA. (: And I enjoyed every single bit of that show, AND the company.
GLAD HE DID, TOO! LOVE YA BEBEH.

Movie ended nearly 10pm. We didn't feel like going home first, the night is still young, man! Haha, so took the train, and headed to Clarke Quay. Ahh, the best part of the day. Just me & him, the river, the lights, the clouds, and the night. All, on his birthday, his 18th birthday.

And it was exceptionally romantic, I swear.

We sat down, took some pictures, had huggs&kisses, talked for a little bit... and then I told him to open up his present again. In it, there's a picture of us, with a song lyric at that back to Asyln's "That's When I Love You" song. I took that picture from him, and started singing that song into his ears.

All throughout, I sang with a held back tear in my eyes, which he never knew of, singing every line and word, meaning every letter of it sincerely, right from the bottom of my heart. With his hands in mine, rubbing my fingers, holding my palms, his soft palms sliding through my arm, slowly and eventually behind my back, hugging me closer to him as I sing the song, sing it til it ends with an "I Love You, Asyraf" & a soft kiss.

Voom, it was all complete. EVERYTHING WAS. And it'd be added bonus if there was fireworks that came shooting up the sky, probably with a "Happy Birthday, Honey" showing in the pretty pretty night sky and all that. Man, it was wonderful. It really was, wonderful.

All said & done, we took some pictures before we left. The trip back home was so cuddly and beary because of all the huggs, I felt like never wanting to end 25 May 2007.

It was certainly a good lunch,
with good company,
great movie,
& BEST NIGHT, ever.

Dear Baby,
I hope you've enjoyed your 18th as much as I've did.
And whatever presents that I gave you,
I'm really glad you loved it.
You should know that no matter what,
I'll be with you,
Through thick & thin, I'd still do.
You are the one,
the one I'll always love,
For with you around, I've got peace,
& feel as free as a dove.
Don't go, My Love,
Don't leave it all,
'Cause it's about to bloom,
A love, so strong.

`ROOL.
(iloveyou,momo)*

psst// I thought I haven't mentioned this but in the red box, there was two Topman polo shirt and three pairs of stars with a lot of crumpled torn up paper, and a photo with lyrics of a song at the back of it. (:

YAY! ( another entry done! ♥ )

collision.

2007-05-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

dear grandma got warded in the hospital.
Peadiatric ICA was a success (with very much STRESS)
i lost my phone!
yeah, i took a new sim card already but haven't make police report
THAT WAS MY FAVOURITE PHONE!
booooooooo.
i went shopping with mommey.
got my River Island pumps!
caught movie Next with the cousins, had starbucks before that (oh, M frappe!), and had supper at the Carousel later, after the movie.
- MOCHA FRAPPE WAS LOVE.
- MOVIE WAS LOVE.
- SUPPER WAS LOVE.
- COMPANY WAS TERRIFIC.
slept over at uncle's
grandma finally got discharged today.
met Meyaa today! (yay!)
going to meet Anip next wednesday (yay!!!)
Clinical skills Theory Exam TMRW.
studied? havent. TSK.
& thanks to this stupid exam, the class........ (haiz!)
i had a good SHIT just now!
felt like ive never shitted for ten years.
constipated i guess.
visit grandma tmrw.
MEET MOMO'S FAMILY THIS FRIDAY.
yeah, for his birthday "lunch"
HAH! (scary siaaaa)
.....Pirates of the Carribean THIS THURSDAY! omg.
bought two pairs of cute little socks.
had Aunt Annies after sooooo long.
sorry MUBZ cannot go your concert next wed! :(
i'll still love ya & support ya okeh. HUGGOS.
STUDY. NOW.
BYE!
rool.
(point form... best!) heh.
psst// Sorry La Lack Of Updates. Busy Girl, Busy Life, Happy Kid.
hah, shuddup! I KNOW.
(:

2007-05-06T15:14:00.000+08:00

I find that I cannot be a tutor, for nuts. Because I tend to lose my temper when my brother gets distracted just by one goddamned ant crawling on my laptop, or when he looks at something else instead of me, probably trying to work out an equation I asked him of, for an answer.

And now, he's using fingers and toes to count (how cute) now, giving me two impressions. Either trying to get back at me for not looking at me while thinking of his answer to two times four or that he really forgot his times two timetable.

Plus sometimes, I tend to lose my temper because he just asks me a simple question. Like for example, "If there's 8 pearls on one necklace, how many pearls are there on 10 necklaces?" Easy, 80 pearls you dumb dumb. Yeah, I know he's just a primary two kid who thinks of playing computer games (which I myself find veryy addictive) and playstation and what have yous. But thing is, he didn't even read the question and straight away asked me how it is to be solved. And when you explained it to him, driving at it through the longer route, you find him answering you like YOURE the dumb dumb now with a straight 80.

Oh feck it, I'm sounding like a nagging mother to a kid who has downsyndrome that finds his face is out of proportion, and telling him that it's okay, you're retarded anwyays.. DAMN. That was harsh, Nurool. Fuck, I'm talking without my brain's permission again.

SORRY.

I'm currently at my granny's, because earlier this morning, we sent Hakeem here for his nagiji and I brought the laptop along, though so yeah. And right now, as I'm sitting here, next to my brother, in front of my sleeping aunty, in the middle of the living room, I'm hearing songs and quite bad singing from the karaoke thingy they have from the next block. It's someone's wedding. And they're singing Bengawan Solo, for the stream's sake!

Okay, I really don't mind if you want to sing and have fun, but please.. sing nicer songs that I can sing along to, with good intonation at least. Call me a choosy shit, but being used to listening good people sing (ahem, my dad's a champion in the 1982 singing competition okay!) around me so that's why it's been petrifying to hear bad singing, just anywhere.

I'm not critisising, but okay, why bother trying to make myself sound justifiable when really, it's just my point of view.

So, I've been finding the songs sung by them really irritating, so much so that it's affecting me with my concentration for my scriptwriting. As I was about to start out, pretty confidently that I'll find muchos peace here, the kompang clan just started out with their slapping of that damned circular thing.

Geez.

And I think it's because of them that I'm feeling quite pissy with my brother for asking me same question AGAIN. Curse!

But it's okay. Momo said, "persevere like a teacher, babe." And I shall. I think I'm just having PMS, big time. Aided with all that's happening around me, which I seriously am through it for the final time.

Over and done with. I'm not talking about anything anymore, so let anything be whatever it shall be, and I shall carry on wondering how nice chocolate hobnobs are, because I've been reading it in my story book & I'm itching to taste it.

I'm GAINING WEIGHT! Yes, it's depressing. Any girl would be, especially me. Despite the really wide variety of weight-losing techniques that might come in handy whenever I'm ready to start on, I keep on postponing it and then carry on depressing about the piling fats in my body.

Last two nights, I was on the phone with Momo, as usual, we have our late night chats til we're both sleepy or it really was the time to sleep. And we're talking about... wait, I don't even remember both of us talking to each other. I think we were spouting nonsense to each other because we were both damn sleepy... I think. So I decided to keep myself awake and carried on with what we were talking on, anyways.. and texted a "Meow!" to Momo, just to "wake him up from his daze too" with his loud message tone.

But guess what, that loud message tone didn't ring. His phone bloody didn't, and I thought he put his phone on silent. I re-checked my phone and turned out that I sent it to the wrong number. Instead of entering 2887 as the last four numbers, I entered 2287.

So I ignored it and resent it to Momo.

The next morning, 2287 called me. My heart skipped a beat, because for once I was wondering why I didn't save Mo's number as "Babycakes" like it had always been. Then I took a closer look, it's 2287. I freaked out. And I don't know for what.

"Hello," I said. "Hi, sorry, can I know who's this?" came the voice. He sounds Indian.. no, I'm not being racist, but I was afraid, of... I don't know what. "Uh, hi.. Sorry.. I.. uh, sent the.. wrong text to you.." I stammered. "Oh, I see I see. It's okay." He replied with such ease, it soothed my anxiety for a sec. "Okay, thanks, bye." And before I could hear him say bye, I quickly hung up.

I don't know why but after that, I had a funny feeling for the rest of the day, and wild thoughts. What if he called back? What if he sent me another sms, wanting to get to know me? What if he..... OMG, NO.

But true enough, last night at 1am (fuck, he's still wondering about me. HAH!), he texted a "Meow" to me. When I saw it this morning, I gagged. Eeeks! I was almost right. And I made mental notes to myself that if he ever calls me again, I'm going to get someone from the male species to answer that call and go, "Excuse me, are you bloody gay? This is MY phone." And then I'll be free from all troubles! Lol.

Momo suggested, "Sorry ****2272, but ****0674(my number) is ****2887(Momo's number)'s." Haha, that'll be so damn cool.

But who knows, he IS gay and is interested in Momo now? Wahaha, I'll be the cracked up-est girl in the face of the universe for having seeing my boyfriend coming to my rescue from the clutches of some 2287 guy and getting HIMSELF all tangled up in the end!

Oh, what a fecking long entry. (: I love blogging. Don't you?

Rool.
(rahh, sorry for the typos, the bad sentence structures and what nots. nyets!)

dont get it twisted, girl.

2007-05-06T12:46:00.001+08:00

It's like Spring Cleaning Day today! Sweeeeet.

Changed the curtains, washed the laundry, hang them up, folding the dried ones, sweeping the floor, hoovered the ceiling fans, wiping the floor, tidy up the tables, clearing up old stuffs...

And finally sitting down for a gulp from the chillest of Coke you've ever drunk. It tasted HEAVEN. (: I was like a mad girl fussing around the house with this and that in my arms, trying to get all the mess in place, right where they belonged. But it was good. It was allll goood.

Keeps my mind off stuffs like wondering why Momo has to go to the gym after having the whole morning of playing soccer as early as 9am, without thinking that it's actually very tiring still even though you don't run in the gym (if you don't want to).. and just work out.

Oh boys, they and their obsession for their body building. I guess it's just like "Retail Therapy" for them. Except that they don't spend AND feel remorseful for having bought something on impulse.. Hah~

So, back to Spring Cleaning Day... I was moving from room to room to bring down the curtains (veryyy dusty ones.. I kept sneezing) with the lightweight ladder which I carried lazily, considering it was pretty light - so macam take advantage lah gituuuu - so I was almost dragging it. I was dragging that ladder into Mom's room, just next to mine, and then as I was dragging that damn ladder, I heard something.

*krackkkk*

Ouch, my heart cringed. Dont fuck tell me I've broken something. I turned my head around slowwlyy..

A broken tile.

WHAAAAAAAAAAAT?

I broke a fucking tile? A tile on the floor that I thought was supposed to be fucking hard and not breakable? RUBBISH. But fuck, I can't scream "RUBBISH!" right into the broken tile's face. So before Mom came back (she went to pick Hakeem up from class), I had to do something. And where the hell can I find a super glue? I don't even know if this house ever has one.

Ah, damn it.

I took that damn piece of tile and stuffed it back into where it fell out from. PERFECT. I stood there, watching intensely for one full minute to see if that thing will drop out again, but it didn't. So i tip-toed, with the damn ladder still in my clutches - this time CARRYING it -, into my Mom's room and carried on with the everything.

Haha, it looks really retarded if you take a close, hard stare. Like, the wall above it was bursting with some Ju-On ghost trying to break the wall to get out of its long-burried hideout.

Oh, the tile is the one standing vertically, and stuck to the wall kind. The one at the foot of the floor, yeah like two inches of short tile there, pathetically. I dont understand why. So yeah.. Til now, no one found out.

=D I'm goood.

Momo said California gym at opposite Cineleisure has Sauna. Bullshhh...!! I WANT TO GO!! You know, on lazy days you don't feel like working your ass out, trying to shed some weight, you can just Sauna your lazy body inside that hot tub thinggy majiggy and burn your fats!

Eh, so easy sia. Provided I can stand the bloody heat. Hah.

Script-writing.
Directing.
Managing.

Those are sooo.... drama-ish. I know they sound big, but trust me, it's just a small skit thing I'm doing for one of my presentation, just for a change of style (in presenting). And I absolutely loveee doing any of those. But thing is, for these kinda things, you need inspiration. You can't just write, or direct, or manage a skit (or drama) without much inspiration. You'll just be a boring old fart trying to make out something you don't even know what in the first place.

Thus, precisely why I'm blogging.

I'm sooo out of inspiration like my whole Inspiration Bank has gone empty. My ideas are not flowing and I'm feeling all lazy to even think. I even texted Kitty Cat to come over (thank God for her staying at the next block) and help me sort out the information I have, and compile them into neater categories.. like,

Nursing Management,
Pathophysiology (fuck this P-word!),
Patient Education,
Treatment,

& all that jazz...

A script-writer has got to have her ideas sorted out, yaw! Haha, I speak of myself too highly already! ..when I haven't even started on what to write. Freaks.

I'll still wait for Kitty who said she might be here around 7-9PM because she's got some stuffs to do first. Oh good, anytime you're free, Meow. Good enough you're agreeing to help. Mwacks.

I'm three quarter way through reading my book. "Other People's Lives" by Sheila Norton. And I tell you, I love the way she write. Not too formal, and totally straight from the heart. Veryy casual and soo.... unexpected.

I don't know, the way she writes.. gives people an impression that she (Beth) might screw Oliver (this young lad she works for as a cleaning lady who cleans houses) anytime and give in to his alluring sex appeal. But in the end, when Oliver suggested shagging in the wardrobe...

     'You,' goes on my mouth, speaking without my permission, bypassing not only my brain but my common sense and my instinct for survival, 'are just a sad, pathetic little wanker.'
     His eyes and mouth both fly open wide. I wonder if he's going to shout abuse at me. But he just says, deadly quiet: 'Is that so?'
     'Yes,' I say, standing on my ground. 'So go on, get in the wardrobe and fuck yourself.'

And I went like, whoaaaaa. Hurray for Beth! YAY! ...but in the end she lost her job because she called Oliver a wanker and telling him to screw himself in the wardrobe.

Haha, I can keep on reading on and on to you, but what's the point? Go get this book yourself. I'm loving it!

Okay, I think reading somemore of this book will get my Inspiration Bank topped up for a little bit. (: And that's essential for my script-writing, yaw!

Rock on, brownie.
ROOOOOOL ♥

Don't use GOD for your own self pity!

2007-05-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

I know it's redundant to do this, but I'm doing this anyway. Not to make anyone feel hurt or tormented, but to make myself feel better because I'm just trying to justify what I deem right.

Oh fuck, this IS my blog, anyways.

to YOU,

Don't come talking about God and play lil saint with me, aye. SERIOUSLY. For God's sake, STOP CRYING OUT SELF PITY! Don't talk about God & how you don't want to add more sins because you can't already ATONE to your piled up ones. Hah, "you don't kiss your boyfriend and go tell it to God." Everyone has a different relationship with Him, but for His sake, heck, keep it to yourself!

And don't fucking talk about God when you've just realised you've got a disease and might be facing him soon. Even if you do OR don't pray or whatsoever, it's none of my business, really. But if you want to use GOD to sound justifiable... guess what? I think God will really not mind me not having a "friend" like you either.

You don't even need to say hi, "because God says so".. Fuck it. I can still live without saying Hi to you la okay. SERIOUSLY.

What's this talking about not being even friends? HAH, GROW UP GIRL. Seriously... you're way too shallow to think that it's either bestfriends or nothing. Gosh, I'm sooo over everything. I'm glad it ended anyways. Thank GOD for it now, aye?

Tonight, I'll pray to God... ask him for forgiveness, & tell him, mould my life better without people I don't need to live with, please. And by tomorrow, I think, life is going to be so much better.

I might be angry as I type this out, but it doesn't matter, 80% of it, IS entirely true. (:

So girl, spite me for all you want.

I was never ungrateful for having a friend like you.. I mean, to have had a "friend" like you. I guess you're just torn by the amount of Ego I brought down of you. But it's okay, I'd understand too.

And don't try to play reverse psychology to say sorry for having to spite me la, making me feel angry la, that you'll still talk to me even if you see me on the streets (because GOD said so) la, making me feel all torn & tattered (because I totally feel the opposite!) la... bla bla bla.

IT'S REALLY NOT WORKING.

If you think I've changed, maybe you should take all your time off that studying and think about how who's changed. How who's becoming more of the person I never thought will be.. Oh, jolly, leave all bad things far from me. I've still got life to do.

It's okay, I don't feel hurt ending this whole thing I had, too. Nothing much to bother about, really, & you can fuss up the entire world about how much of a bitch I'm being, & then, feel happy yourself..

I'm already feeling quite good. Considering I've have got the CONSTANT friends around me. Who's not so ego to still say HI to me over MSN even if I've not talked to them over ten million years. Ahh.. my buddies. (:

Nevertheless, whoever that's being "pulled into" this whole thing I have with you, let them be in okay. If they want to move away being MY friend because of YOU or anything else you said, let them be..

I'm not sure if i mind losing them, but I certainly don't mind whatever that has happened.

Because unlike you, I still care.. Ahh, USED-TO anyways.

I don't give a fuck now, to self-pitying people. (:
Hate tags are welcomed, though,
I won't give a fuck, too.

And IF I WAS DYING, (note: IF) I'd be a girl who'd say sorry to everyone in the world & try to make amends instead of falling out on each other. & spend the shortest time I have before I go so that at least I know in this world, I won't have enemies..

No pun intended, so if you feel like that last para was for you, just probably laugh it off or maybe.. think about it thoroughly. I'd suggest you do the latter, but then again, I won't be bothered if you wanted to or not, anyways.

IM SO MOVING ON.

girlfriends, boyfriend, friends, closefriends..

I don't think I have enough space for anymore category of Friends, though.

& I hate that B-word already.

Hah, Best-fucking-friend MY ASS!

ROOL.

of girlfriends, boyfriend, and Love ♥

2007-04-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

Nikki, Carisa & I

I've been such a happy goober in school lately, thanks to these bitches I have in school to keep me sane, half the time. Breaks have been pretty mundane if its not for the bitching session & muchos gossips we exchange between each other. Year two has been tough, we all know it. & I know I won't fail to strive harder this time round, with the help of my bitches & of course, with determination as well. I hope I can achieve better grades this sem, & all throughout. (:

I LOVE YOU BOTH BITCHES!

Classes ended early today. & I was effin' bored, I swear. So I thought of going home, sleep for two hours, then wake up & leave to meet my Momo, who apparently has soccer trials in school til 4pm-ish. But as soon as I got into my room, I was hooked to the laptop. & If i were to sleep, trust me, I won't be able to wake up til it's dawn.

Yes, I'm a pig in a human suit (when it comes to sleep).

So then i slacked around in front of my laptop & left home at 4pm because I can't stand being at home doing nothing anymore. The skies were sooo gloomy, sooo dark, sooo scary, it's freaking me out. I brought my umbrella for security purposes but guess what, I guess I'm too blessed (: I got to the MRT station unscathed.... by the raindrops. Haha.

Perfect. (:

So made my way to SP & had early dinner there, was starving because didn't really eat in school earlier today, so yeahs. Momo said the chicken rice (with black pepper sauce) were to die for when it comes to Foodcourt 3. So I thought I could try & see if I really must die for that chicken rice. Skaaali, tak die die pun... I stayed on alive, apart from all the other strangers eating with me, & finished my rice.. Well, it was terrific with ten toes up to the sky & parachute down, kinda marvellous, but it's not that kind of I'm so going to get colon cancer from eating this shit right about now kinda bad also (:

Dinner, then library...

my beautiful disaster, Momo.

his precious little girl (:

yes, i know..

Rool, Momo.

Just a little comic for you to enjoy.
(click to enlarge)

Yes, as guessed (probably), we read comics, & took pictures in the library. Heh, I love Garfield comics BIG TIME. They're so funny, for a mute cat & a dumb owner. Oh, I love Garfield that fat cat. I wish I can keep a pet like Garfield. Then I guess my diet plan might workout after all (:

We didn't spend too much time in the library, though. & I felt like I HAD to borrow a book home. It could be of good use to me, you know. Reading to & fro school in the train could stimulate my brain cells a little. Looking at people with weird hair-dos, sleeping like a log, blasting their mp3 players through their peanut earphones, staring at people as if they're the prettiest people on planet Earth to be noticed, can seriously destroy & deteroriate my brain cells... & suck them juices.

..no wonder I pee a lot these days.

Oh, it's been pretty much of the raining season, huh? Or is it the unpredictable weather season? It's getting fucked up to enjoy a sunny day OR a rainy day nowadays. The rain will just pour like an old man having trouble with his loose sphincter at his bladder to control his urine, & the sun will just shine mercilessly on my, already-losing-much-hair-can-you-please-stop-shining-so-hot, head.

I need a weather forecast, personally.

YIKES! I've seen Robin T's "Lost Without You" music video on youtube & I tell you, he's such a hotsex god la. Tsk, I can so droooooool over him all over again man. & even singing/performing live, he sings with sooo much oompf, I'm going crazy now.

I need Robin Thicke, STAT!

I cut my little left pinky while hanging the laundry just now. I was trying to pull this loose/flying/irritating thread out & I think I pulled it too hard, & now it cut my precious pinky. I felt such a sharp pain when I was trying to pick out other clothes from the washing machine la. Stupid underwear.... & it was mom's.

TSK!

MY PAY IS IN!!!!
More shopping, here I come.
I don't care if I need to save already or not,
But I'm SOOOOO going to shop shop shop til my cut gets bigger!
..yes, IN THE POCKET.
<3.

Oh, here's the book I borrowed from SP:

Other People's Lives by Sheila Norton.

I hope it's a good book & not make me fall asleep instead, in the MRT.

By the way, I uploaded 3 albums at once!
Well, not at once, but at one time.. one after the other.
Go check it out, yes! (:

Grand Hyatt, Dad's 52nd & Happiness from within~

ENJOY*

ROOL.

chronic addiction

2007-04-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

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I'm so addicted to Robin Thicke's Lost Without You song. Call me ulu but that's the new sex. I haven't seen a picture of him (Robin T.) though. But I bet he's one sexy love (if he really is) judging from that sexual & sensous (sp?). I love men with low husky voice though Thicke don't exactly possess such LOW & mellow voice. It's still sexy altogether, with his soul-ish number. Aww.... such a perfect song to make love.

I'm lost without you, can't help myself..~

I can't stop singing it already la. I've been listening to it at Gym on radio ever since last few weeks ago. And yeah la, Momo has it all along but he didn't send it to me. Kept forgetting lah he... Then kept me waiting in such a sexually-deprived-ears manner..

Not that I know of any ears having sex.

But then again, I'm feeling all sexy & slow mo now, I don't know why. Oh no, I bet you do. Yes, you can thank Thicke again for getting me all slow boogey jiggy jazzy teasy weasy. Awwhh...

By the way, I talked to Momo's mom just now FOR THE FIRST FUCKING TIME PLEASE! Mo's mama called him & asked where he was. And they were talking for like three minutes there while i eavesdropped (because Mo has his volume turned on to the maximum I guess & half the block can hear what his mom was saying through the phone la) what they were talking about for those whole 3 minutes.

THEN SUDDENLY, Mo went like, "Mama, nak bebual dengan Nurul?" (Mama, want to talk to Nurul?) I was like, "WHAAAAAT!?" only without any sound because I was thiiisss close to the mobile phone of his. THEN SECOND SUDDENLY, his mama said, "okay!"

crap shit fuck whatthehell yourheadlamomo ohmygod dang toots........................ & everything else came when I tried HARD to avoid being heard as the phone came to me, nearer & nearer.

"Hello..."
"Hello.."
"Hi..."
"Ni Nurul eh?"
"Yah, ni Nurul..Cik apa khabar?"
"Baik aja.. Masih duduk duduk lagi ke?"
(because Momo told her that we're still sitting down near my house talking crap)
"Ah, ya. Ni lah, si Asyraf ni saya suruh balik dia tak nak.."
(Momo was cringing & slapping his forehead by then)
"Oh.. tak nak balik eh. Ni dah nak dekat pukul 7 ni.."
"Itu lah.."
"Okay, dia cakap nanti 7.15 dia nak jalan.."
"Ya.."
"Tolong make sure nanti dia jalan eh.."
"Okay.."
"Ya, dah nak maghrib ni"
"Okay...."
"Okay, put him on the phone.."
"Okay.......................!"

*TAKES A DEEP BREATH IN!!!!!!!!*

Omg, if that's a technique to kill your girlfriend, that'd be technique #2 (First one, kiss me in front of my parents). Crap, I almost died-ed there la! & No, my body WON'T feel as if she died & went to heaven okay! NOT ANYWHERE NEAR THAT!

I swear I didn't know what to say la. Resulting in my futile attempts to remain calm & steady. IT WAS TOO SUDDEN PLEASE. Thank God I don't have heart failure........................... ehh.. CHOY!!!

tsk. So much for my sensual & sexual mood tonight. I think I've lost it, even Thicke here personally wouldn't make me feel all tingly sensation-y~ already.

I need Mo's aura.................... =O

THEN AGAIN,

I might want Justin T's.................. first.

hehh, I love you people.
ROOL.

wishlist

2007-04-20T21:43:00.000+08:00

I KNOW I HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING,

~~but shuddup!~~

But I want to post a wish list, anyways. Because I've been so deprived of so many things, it's starting to annoy me, because I want to be nice & pretty too, because I'm a girl though I tend to behave like a boy, because I want to revamp my wardrobe, because I want to buy things that I've never bought before.. & because it's my business to type all those shit.

so, here goes!

1. 2 Zara cartoonish tops,
2. that yellow-printed Forever 21 top!
(sad, it's the last piece hanging on th shelf which is of my size,
BUT I DONT FREAKING HAVE TH CASH!)
3. another basic tunic from Topshop
4. That fucking cute shoes from Zara
5. Necklaces & earrings.

I know I sound pathetic not having all of those, yet. But so be it, man. I'm an outdated girl who wears really outdated clothes (like Samuel & Kevin, Fox...) so I need a change. Damnit. I so can't wait.

Money, money come to me. 130 bucks from ze attachments, I'll be getting (which I've been waiting since I was two.. yeah right!). Sigh, 130 sounds so little to me. I wish mom would round it up to 150 or say 200 bucks for me, bonus! Then again, the only time when she does that is when Dad gives me 2,000 bucks a month.

pfft.

I hate broken families. let's not go there....

I think this is the most depressing entry of mine, for a "comeback". But heck, blame it on school man. It's only the first week of school & there goes our liberty. No more, "it's okay.. it's just the first week of school, next time don't forget to bring your book okay..." Fuck, no more la. It's more like,

"You never bring your book, next class? OUT YOU GO.
You never wear lanyard to Lab? OUT YOU GO.
You're wearing Tanks/Shorts/Slippers? OUT YOU GO.
Your hair colour isn't natural. Excuse me, OUT YOU GO!!"

Argh, for the first time in my NYP life, I've got the worst clinical lecturer(s). Yes, TWO of them suckiest lecturer are taking us for our clinical skills, HS 2043. Two words? DAMN IT/YOU.

One is an ex-sister (Nurse Manager) from KK Hospital, the other one is a former student of NYP & a staff nurse of I-don't-care-which-hospital. Worst thing, Asmah (Ex-NM) ever taught Tan E.H. (ex-student/staff nurse) when he was still studying.

NO WONDER LA BOTH ATTITUDE SUCK.

Actually, T.E.H is the suckier one. He's a mumbler, self-centred, irritating & annoying lecturer. Yeah, so what if three of us (Nik, Carisa & I) needed to go to the toilet at the same time? Can't help it our bladder got full together............... you idiot.

"Wah, go toilet also must three person go ah?" Fuck you.

He doesn't know how to teach for nuts. It's CLINICAL SKILLS for your pig's sake. & there you are, standing & talking while the rest of us (students) have to sit on the floor, trying to see what the fuck is on your trolley, which is apparently two heads taller than us while sitting down, feeling all uncomfortable because of the pins & needles (semut-semut) on our legs/thighs/ass & probably vajayjays too.

TEH was talking out of his own world, pronouncing "biopsy" as "boucy", telling us what to prepare in a sterile set when the sterile set is made complete with everything he just mentioned, telling unnecessary old uncle stories - twice his age old - that has no links, jumping & skipping skills like his father made our brain to go suit his choice..

I can't help feeling so retarded that I've got to go through this Semester with retarded lecturers. SICK is the word. Call me mean, but I don't give a hood.

Okay, I'm sorry if all those spoiled my jovial-shit-girl image. I'm just stressed... almost. & what could be worst than having your lecturers telling you that you got to be punctual for your ICAs on the first day of school, already distributing questions to your In-Course Assesment presentation, in mid-sem.

Up to date, I've got four due presentations already. & in my mind? I've yet to start! Shucks. Then, it's that Burmese lecturer.

& HE'S TEACHING BIOLOGICAL SCIENCE, FOR HIS COUNTRY'S SAKE! All hail Myanmar...~ not!

He teaches s...l.......o...............wwwww....ll.......yyy, (probably ten thousand times slower than your trailing those dots to the word "slowly" I just typed). He can just go on & on for 1 hour, stuck to the FIRST PAGE OF THE MANUAL. Well if he's forgotten, there's SO MUCH to study in Bio & if he takes 1 page per hour, we're going to need 1,000hours of Bio.......... which... sounds as if i could have ten grandchild already.

Sigh, Sem 1 - I'm stuck with fucktarded lecturers. Sem 2 - MORE MODULES (& I'm guessing, MORE fucktarded lecturers).. HELL.

Tell me how to survive YEAR TWO?

(oh, & I just found out that we've got 10 weeks of attachments in Year 2 & of three weeks, they're FREE LABOUR.)

tskkkk....pffft.....grrr...... ROARS!!!!

But it's okay.... It's really okay. I'm cool & I'll always be cool. Hehh.

On a lighter note, a very much liberated one at that, today I get to meet my mister for some loving! School's been a bitch & it's definitely nice to calm yourself & soothe your raging emotions with your loved one, at the end of the day.

We hit Vivo City & I can't help but to ogle at pretty tops from them retail outlets. Fuck, I don't want to get materialistic man, but they're really pretty. But anyhoots, it was a lot of walking here & there almost all over the mall.

& GUESS WHAT? I NEVER STEP INTO THE PUMA BOUTIQUE AT ALL!! HAH!

It was damn surprising for me, being such a huge Puma fan myself but I realised it's time to move on & come back when I really am rich for their merchandise. I feel so demoralised already when I can't even have proper clothes. & I can't afford to use whatever money I have/am going to have, on expensive things like Puma this, Puma that & forsake what I really need instead of want.

First time sia I'm thinking RIGHT! chets.

Still, I got myself a basic tunic top from Topshop & darn it felt SO GOOOD to have relief just slight of my retail therapy! CRAP, I WANT MORE.

But anyways, Vivo City is not bad la. River Island suck so bad to be darn expensive. I hope I can meet the manager of that outlet & tell him he's really handsome (I'm assuming it's a He because I'm straight) & that he should really mark down the price because then, it'll bring him a lot customers.... & then I should really play retarded at the end of it because he's going to kick me out of the store & humiliate me saying that was the worst begging technique I've ever used, next to selling tissues in hawker centre.

SIGH.

Oh ya, so much for posting my wishlist (alone). Now I've blogged. Hah.

ANYHOOOOOOOOOTS,

I LOVE you, Mo.

psst: SHIT, STARBUCKS ROCKS LA. After a tiring day. My throat feels like it died & went to heaven..

ROOL.

im so flattered!

2007-04-13T14:45:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Lelaa, I feel so flattered.

Check this out!

Haha, the comments I mean. :D

Whee~
I'm a happy booger, yay!

ROOL.

LOBSTER

2007-04-13T14:43:00.000+08:00

I yam burnt, people.
I yam so red, I think I'm turning into a lobster. Seriously, I think swimming in the sea for close to three hours straight since afternoon will bring you so much natural blush. In my case, it's turning me into a lobster.

My cheeks feel burnt. I hope it doesn't peel. Even if it does, let it be til Sunday. SCHOOL'S STARTING ON MONDAY! & I don't want to attend classes with peeled face & still looking like a fulgy lobster.

I shall blog about the beaching today with my lovely girls - Nana, Meyaa, Ali, Lelaa & Mashita (if that's how you spell her name!) who's Meyaa's cousin from Melaka! Hello, you! - when I've got time & mood.

At first she was bloody shy, total opposite of us. She felt uncomfortable from what I could notice because she kept hiding behind Meyaa (who was THAT easy for her to just take cover from). Haha, I'm not being mean but she's PUNY man! Seriously, she weighs only 36kg & standing at roughly... 1.48m tall? My God, she needs my fats! Anyone can do Lipo-transfer from me to Mashita's body????

just don't take my boobs away...

So, those were just teasers. Will update soon okay, if I have the mood too. It's almost midnight now & I got to sleep early to wake up for gym tomorrow. *gasp*

NUROOL? GYM? hahahahhahahahahaha....... SHUDDUP YOU!

that's my dirty little secret. will share again soon. BYE LAH!

ROOL. ♥

bop bop baby!

2007-04-11T22:34:00.001+08:00

MIA! i knoww.

Well, forgive me Your Highness. Nothing interesting have been happening lately. Nothing eventful. Besides dad's getting to find out that I'm already dating by catching me red handed in Mo's arms. Oh, what could be a worst way? Kissing? Hah, then you'll have a smashed headed Nurool.

SO THERE, I'm going beaching tomorrow! With my girls, yay yay! Nurlela, Nur Atiqah, Rosnahwaty & Umairah! Haha, nama semua tak glamour! LOL. Kesian lah kamu. Nana (Rosnah) made it a must to come in bikini. & yes, as you've guessed it right, I'm not a bikini girl. I don't even have one.

& ALI(Atiqah)'S GOING TO LEND ME HERS.

Omg, I know.. you must be thinking, "how th hell are you going to fit into Ali's? Your boobs are watermelons!" Sorry, that's not bragging but the truth. I find them a hassle at times too but oh well, my assets, my pride. HAHAHA.

I don't know if I'm even going to wear it lah. Because Meyaa & Lelaa don't have them. (& Meyaa says it's unfair for us three to wear it) so she don't want to go. NO WAY! I won't take my top off in th bikini if it means you would come without a bikini. Okay?

I just dropped my phone. FIRST TIME. & it scratched, dented & broke my heart. Worst, ON TH TOILET FLOOR.. which is by th way, th roughest tile I've ever seen & you can even feel it (th tile) poking into your feet because it's slip proof AT ALL!

Damnit. & it's all because of my jeans. ALAH, GERAM NYA! Mister said it's time to get a silicon casing. But for me, since it's already dented SOMEHOW, I'm just forgoing that idea. Why do it when it's all scratched already? So sakit hati only.... BOO.

SO TMRW, I shall be a camera slave & just pose pose pose while Lelaa, our shorty photographer (in a good way okay!) snaps my pictures away... I mean, OUR pictures. :D

I'm so excited already, & I know you guys so feel it, too. HAHA. So, til then, Imma start packin' my beach bag! & sleep earlier tonight so that I can wake up at 830am tmrw to reach Ang Mo Kio at 9fucking30AM.

SO SEE YA LATER!~
Rool.

Blast Off!!!

2007-04-03T12:37:00.000+08:00

HOLA!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, yes, yes. I've been into hide-out for far too long now & I'm sure I'm muchos missed, hoho. It's okay people, your fairytale mama mia is now here, to ease your sobbing days. (:

CUTTT!!!!~

I KNOW, it's lame. But I've been hyper!! & HAPPY! yay. & I KNOW, TOO, that it's a lil too late to sum up my blasted week, last week. But you know I don't care because it has been my BEST BEST BESTEST week last week in sooooooooo many years!

It's th week that I've got to meet up with alllllllll my lovelies! & that makes me a happy goober, yay!

Started off with last Saturday, where I met (almost) ALL th MBs for Susu's birthday picnic at West Coast! It was fun fun fun to be with your girlfriends again, to be talking, sharing, laughing, joking & then get tired altogether. I totally enjoyed myself, too. PLUS! I met Shahril Aziz!!! & his girlfriend on th same day! Whoa, best. She's so pretty & cute. No wonder Aziz lost his senses! Ahahaha.

Then came Mongday!!!!! Meyaa my la LOVE came over!! Just to meet me before she leaves for KL (in case I can't accompany her for shopping on Wednesday). yaaaaayyyyyyyy!!!~ Awww. It's been AGES since we had sister-to-sister time like that. Haha, thou Baby was there, too, I bet th whole time spent together was purfekkt. We three played my SPONGEY MONOPOLY! Which, *Ahem*, I won, by th way. :D Haha. But before that, Meyaa & Baby helped me with plucking leaves from some vegetable to prepare for dinner later that night.. all done while I fold th laundry. Hehh.

It was fun-loving & by th time Baby got home, Meyaa & I together with Hakeem played another round of Monopoly. This time, Meyaa won. Alah, I give her chance one. Hehh. Oh! & we had ice-cream! Paddlepoppppp LOVING! Oh, I'll never get sick of this ice-cream! :D So dinner was ready & soon after, dinner, Meyaa had to go.. because it was already almost 10pm! Haha. & her parents kept calling her to come home already. LOL. I LOVE YOU LAH MEYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! & of course me Baby too! ♥ ♥ !

Tuesday was ZOOday! Hoho, with ze much missed Carisa & Nikki bitches. I had a blast, too! From all those talking about our attachments, asking FOREIGNERS to take a picture of us, trying to take jumping shots that were NEVER successful, getting bitten by mosquitoes, eating at KFC, walking in th water & get disturbed by th primary school kids (which we manage to counter in split seconds! HAHA, egoo..), eating b&j's after that, take somemore pictures before we board th bus back to AMK, take SOMEMORE pictures in th bus, getting all tired, going to AMK Hub to just check it out..................

OMG, I can go on & on & on, rambling about all th fun I had. It was just a perfect day to be with your girlfriends again. :) I love you two, bitches.

& on th same day, ze ZOOday, it was mommey's birthday too. We had dinner over at my uncle (Papa)'s cafe & I had Chicken Cutlet (which was not quite my favourite but I ate it anyways because dad had Sirloin Steak which, apparently, was my favourite) while ze birthday girl had Chicken Chop & Hakeem, Fish & Chips. Then I had Paddlepop Rainbow ice-cream AGAIN!! AHhHhHhHh!!!! My classic favourite since primary school! See? I told you already.. I'll NEVEER get sick of that ice-cream. Ooh la LOVE~!

Thou I didn't had presents for mommey, I hope with those said prayers we had, it's all enough. :) I LOVE YOU MOMMEY!!!!!!!!!!!~~ & you've finally turned another big ZERO in your age account! FORTY! Haha. It's okay, old in age but young at heart! You can still buy them accessories & dress up! Because then if you feel too old to wear it, you know I can ALWAYS & gladly wear them for youu :) Mwacks!

WEDNESDAY! Shopping with Meyaa! Haha, I finally could make it. But last minute, MOMMEY had to ruin plan. Tsk, I don't know for what reason she was like nagging & nagging on th phone to me.. saying, "Why didn't you call me when you want to go out?" when I NEVER call her everytime I leave th house & things like that. Got my mood all ruined & worst, she wants me back home almost immeditely. I was feeling soooooo agitated.. because my poor Meyaa has to shop alone!

& I CANNOT GET MY SHOPPING DONE, TOO.

So, when we reached Vivo, I, out of anger, & wanting to get something back, splurged what I saved for a Topshop tunic dress from their Petite Collection. Hah! & I actually felt a little better. :) Th wonders of Retail Therapy... wooo~* But anyways, after all those walking around IN A RUSH (which I TOTALLY HATE because that's not what SHOPPING is supposed to be like), I headed for th train HOME. Irgh, it was soooo bloody irritating but I didn't wna sulk so much & gave Meyaa a BIGGG & WARM hug just before I get down th train. Sorry Meyaa, BUT I LOVE YOU STILL OKEH!

& in th train, I called Baby to ask him to meet me. Haha, my alternative source of sulking. :D Then, when I was already reaching Jurong East, ZE MAZJHA CALLED AGAIN. She asked me to RETURN TO CITY HALL to check out th price of a Guess Bag. My God, I really wonder how mothers can piss off their kids so well without actually using much effort, JUST AUTHORITY. DAMNIT.

But heck, Baby's already on his way to Yew Tee to meet me so I shan't listen to mommey just like how she didn't when I said I want to carry on shopping. Hah! Felt soooo much better then since it was ME who was pissed off. :) I sound so mean but you've yet to see more. But then again, I met Baby & everything else was GOOOD.

SO THURSDAY came.. Ah~ finally a day of undisturbed rest. A day of slouching in front of th TV, eating my ass away.. Haha, I've been a fat pig. A couch potato. Except that there isn't much shows on TV. But Baby has been sweet & nice enough to company my Thursday & it was a day of Me & Him, just th two of us.. right where it's th cosiest place on Earth, my house. :)

Let's leave th details out, but just so you know you little rotting brain people, there was better things to do than whatever you might think we'd do in th house when there's only us. I'll leave it to you guys to imagine th wonderful time I had on Thursday, & I don't care what. :)

Friday Was Th Best Day To Wrap Up My Week...day! I met up with Mubz & Siti for a band concert by TP at their school itself (which we fucken got lost & all grouchy for that matter) & were late. Hah. Th concert was not bad, thou most of th time my darlings & I were busy camwhoring & laughing at almost nothing. JUST TH WAY WE ARE. Mannn... I miss them TWO DARLINGS of mine already.

Only wished that Syuadah was there so th WHOLE French Horn section could be reunited again. But then again, it was a blast by itself already. & we took sooo much photos with our mobile phones, I can't wait to get it from Mubz to upload them all up! Oh, after th concert & very much camwhoring, we cabbed down to Tampines Mall (which took forever because all th cabs doesn't seem to want to stop! FUCKERS) & when we finally did, I REALISED I LOST MY WALLET.

Dang!!! Okay so it was a pouch with only my School Card & $12 in it, BUT THAT'S BESIDES TH WHOLE POINT. That pouch was a gift from Nikki! She bought it from Chiang Mai, Thailand & personally sew letters of my NAME on it with an accompanying button of a girl to go with it!

ARGH. IM SO SAD :(

So much for all th fun & laughters we had. & I planned to eat Pastamania but it was all cancelled because my money is gone & thank God that my Ez-link is in th zip of my handbag. Or else, I won't even have th money to GO HOME.

hurhur. Btw, thanks for th dinner, MUBZ! I LOVE YOU! & SITI TOOO!!! ♥ ♥ MWACKS!

& I LOVE ALL OF THOSE WHO MADE MY WEEK POSSIBLE! AHHHHH I LOVE YOU GUYS. & it has indeed been a great week. Where I got to meet almost all of my lovelings. :D & I hope to meet more in weeks to come!!

& By th way, next week is th last week I have to enjoy my ass out before school starts & everything gets topsy turvy. So, HO HO HO....... HORLICKS!

I'm off for now.
Will be back with more updates, I HOPE.

NUROOL!!!!!:))

Forgive me, My Love.

2007-03-26T11:32:00.000+08:00

My Love,
I know I've been hard on you,
I know I've been insensitive,
I know deep inside, you're burning rage.
& I know it all, but it's not okay.

My Love,
I didn't mean what I said,
What I did,
What I showed.
I don't know why, how, it all went this way.

My Love,
We are young & naive,
But that doesn't stop us from knowing how to go on,
from here to wherever Love could bring us to.
It's painful, & uncomfortable,
To know you're there,
but I don't seem to reach out to you.

My Love,
I don't wish to prolong anymore of this,
I don't wish to live in this silence because of me anymore,
I don't wish to go on listening to nothing
when there's everything to have to be said, & talked about.

You're so special to me,
So dear to me,
& so precious to me.

I know I've been a fool,
& have been making mistakes.
But here I am,
Standing in front of th cyber world,
Apologising to you...

I'm Sorry.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

I still love you, the same.
Please, forgive me.

♥ , rool.

incubus.

2007-03-23T20:44:00.000+08:00

My fucking gorgeous bitch, Carisa.
It's been weeks since we've met, woman! & I've missed you since! Yes, Zoo on Tuesday with you & Nikki okeh! Your new curly wurly tresses did you justice lah! PRETTY BOO!

My equally-as-hot bitch, Nikki
Muchos misses to you too, Nik! It's been longer since I've met you because you've been into your hiding for so long now, it's time we meet again on Tuesday for Zoo okeh! Ohh, I miss you bitches!

My oh-so-darn-cute mister, when he was 14. (:
His face spells so much pride & triumph with his boldly held medal in his hands. Damn, I so love that naive look he holds. :)

Treasure, in a box. ♥
Such a dear! He looks so cute in that tiny box which could only fit himself (& his brother)in it. Ahaha, man... he is so fair back then! Baby.. baby.

I'm just feeling random now.
& Acoustical.

I felt Sentimental last two nights.
I don't know what's up with all th genre that's sinking into me.
I guess it's a good way to choose my kind of songs now.. instead of being so boring & listen to th same old damn songs. =D

Mo's making his own multiply account.
YAY!

yes, random again.
rool.

i smell of you, somewhere...

2007-03-23T16:58:00.000+08:00

Boo, you're so missed.

Take good care of your thigh okay, or "quads" as you'd call it.
Remember to take th medicine, & sleep first before doing anyth
else because that medicine causes drowsiness, alright.
Also don't forget to eat, too.
Don't skip your meals & have sufficient rest, please.

I don't want you to screw up your match tomorrow,
& I hope you don't have to be substituted out too because
of th pain in your thigh.

Thanks for dropping by even for just half an hour,
th time spent with me is just so precious to lose.
Your hugs, your kisses, your touch, your presence
just eased whatever unreturned love I felt.

Take care, baby. & good luck for your match tomorrow.
I love you & will always do love you.

*huggs*,
rool.

and you are, oh oh elle? (n-u-r-o-o-l)

2007-03-22T15:28:00.000+08:00

From th time I woke up, til now, I haven't bath & stepped out of my room. I'm still sleepy because I couldnt return to my sleep after going to th toilet (th only time I'm out of th room) & I've been on th laptop since then.

I hate how much of a pig I can be, always doing stupid things -only that I do not eat mud NOR my own faeces- & waste time when I could've done something better. Now that's what you might want to expect if you put me at home, alone on a weekday.

I've been on to almost all th websites I always go, & chatted with almost everyone I don't always chat with. Well, not exactly thou but I've been occupying my time with nothing in particular.. like, right now. Where this post is totally meaningless &... I know I shouldn't go on.

But, just for boredom's sake, I've been hogging on to:

Imeem

Blogger

Livejournal (trying to work something out, but I can't seem to do anything productive there!)

Friendster

Youtube

& writing this entry.

Five websites, enough to fill 5 & a half hours of mine since I woke up. It's time I go have a shower, prep up a dish or two (when I only know how to cook maggi), clean th house, watch some tv, ...& maybe sleep again.

Til then,
-nurOol(:

[edit] I want to be very random here so here I go:

It's a very hunky body, aye?

Ohh, you might want to check out th rest of th body, too. :D Then again, I guess I'll do th checking myself.. & get back to you. [/edit]

Billy is a handy man, Dinah is too loose.. HAHA.

2007-03-21T23:38:00.000+08:00

"They sucking dick, they let you play son.
If they show up, up, time to be served.
Somebody hey, hey, look at this ladel.
Cause im going throu the hay to your home."

hahaha, now my mister got hooked onto them crap foreign song-made english songs!
what an addiction! :D

i wanna grow old with you..

2007-03-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

Aussie dreams;
We built our houses next to each other's.
My house is for partying,
& Yours is for movie marathons & maybe just chilling out.

I could drop by once in a while,
Claiming I was bored & needed company.
"Well, th house is too big for one anyways,"
Though deep inside I wanted to check you out,
Just to feel you close to me,
Without actually telling you how much I really wanted to stay.

Soon, I asked if th attic could be mine,
With no hesitation, you exclaimed "Sure!" in glee.
My heart skipped a beat, I smiled so wide.
You said could use a telescope in my attic, in your house,
Just like Clark Kent's.

So I asked, "So then, who's your Lana?"
Deep inside, hoping you'd say me.
It was such a beautiful word, such a beautiful feeling,
Even for a second of unspoken words,
I kept quiet, sitting intently & waiting for you to reply.
"You", was what you said.

My heart jumped.
I wanted to scream but I just smiled so wide.
It was such a bliss, I felt so wanted.
& It makes me want to start all over again.
Th house, th land, th dream, that Aussie..

& th us.

I never felt something so special,
at least not this special yet.
It's amazing how dreams led us on,
further & deeper into our wildest imagination.

& when dreams actually come true,
that's when you've got me in you.
I don't regret just giving you a chance.
because if I didn't, I bet I'll still be in a trance.

thanks for all, everything that you do.
it's been a journey, which started off pretty shakily,
but which has now regained it's stability.
I hope it'll stay this way for a very long time.

for I wanna grow old with you...

Dear Baby,
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the ~~man~~ girl who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

I ♥ You, Asyraf.

Combat Specialist.. whoaa.

2007-03-21T01:10:00.001+08:00

What a chilly night, tonight. I think I need some tomato sauce.

My mister & I headed down to CNPB, SAF Career's Office for his Army Recruitment. He signed up for Engineering Specialist at first, & he told me that wasn't what he really wanted. He said he wanted to be a Combat Specialist. I asked him why didn't he choose that in th first place, he said, "I chosed wrongly lar.. see wrongly.."

#1. Baby, how can you ever "choose wrongly" for something so crucial to you, which involves your career in future. & to do something you don't like (after all those bullshits said -"patriotism" to Singapore- during th interview) in th future is just going to be a burden to you.

#2. You should have re-checked & make damn sure of what you chose lar.

See boo, I'm not nagging but I really want to see you enjoy doing something you really want so that all your efforts & hard work that you've placed in to get it will be paid off.. thou I know what you really want is to be a part of th SAF.

Interview time: 1400 hours. It was 1345 hours when we reached, & th place was half filled with boys all looking smart & eager to go for their interviews to be a part of th Army. Some dressed up like as if they were going for an interview as a Manager in Grand Hyatt Hotel. Some dressed as if they were going to a Punkrock gig.

2 more hours passed & finally th officer called out "A046", my mister's que number. Before that, he was all anxious & scared plus nervous & everything you have felt before going for your first job interview.

I reassured him that he can do it, which I know very well that he can, & so into th room he went off, walking in with all th confidence he can have.. at least. :) So, I just sat outside, reading Life! from The Straits Times, slowly flipping through.. assuming th interview to take hours.

By th time I switched th paper (at th newspaper rack) to th Home section & just about to finish one article on th facing page, my man came out with no traces of sweat trickling down his forehead, at all. I was surprised, both at th time span of th interview & his calm self.

So I found out that th interview wasn't all pressurising like I/he/we thought it would be. In fact, they just asked about his family background, what aspect he is interested in, & even to tell them one thing to impress them. I was like, "No wayyy...". Haha, turns out, my mister told them a grandfather tale of how he's been excited to serve his NS & how he's been wanting to be a part of th Army since he was a kid. All those bullcrap shit story you can have (:

Haha, sorry boo. Yours wasn't bullcrap la. Probably just cow dung. :P joke, love.

So anyways, my mister was told that he couldn't take on Engineering Specialist at th Army. Then I thought he was devastated.. because what else could he do, then? ..since it was th only thing he signed up for. But after which baby told me that he could only do Combat Specialist (which was something HE WANTS) because his course - Aeronautical Engineering - has nothing to do with whatever Engineering Specialist has to offer.

..which is a good news! Hahaha, no wonder he was calm & cool when he walked out of th interviewing room. :D Congrats, baby. Now let's just hope for th best & that you'll get th sponsorship, alright!

*Huggs*

Tiong Bahru Plaza was lame. Nothing much there, so we decided to catch a movie. Most of th movies we wanted to watch were at around six plus but it was only near five pm at that time. I didn't think I could watch movie that late anyways because mommey wants me home earlier. So we decided to hit City Hall instead, for some ice-cream loving. ohh, waffles too!

So, to Gelare we went!

our much distorted-looking Chocolate Chip Waffle w/ Cookies & Creams ice-cream on top, with chocalate sauce to add-on!

Yum, my boyfriend looks so yummy. HAHA.

Eh, really damn sedap sia th first bite!

Someone look really CUTE here, please!

:D, I was almost dying from all those chocolate down my throat.

So i asked my mister to get mineral water, since they "don't serve Ice Water" there.. because i was seriously going to puke.(I think I had too much for th day already.)

There, th final blow.

I couldn't take it no more & by th time everything was gulped down agonisingly, towards th end, them sedap waffle tasted like pure oil going down your neck & into your stomach. irgh.

Thus, we decided to talk a walk around Singapore Town, ~~in a Singapore city bus~~ & head for th Civilian War Memorial "Tower"(a.k.a War Memorial Park) right in th heartland of City Hall(?) Haha, but anyways.. it was such a nice place to be at, just now at least (where there are not much people sticking around so you can "rendezvous" pretty privately).

It was quite high up, so I took a picture of th "Tower" in two parts. The bottom one here.

& th rest of th "Tower", here. :D I loved th place.

That's me, in th middle of th whole tower thing, looking so happy. Haha.

Baby's reading it..

& This was what it said..

Random Shots

Ever so pretty, & beautiful it stood.

The Four Chambers of its Heart.

I had one of my nicest times with my mister there, just now after so long of not really spending quality time together. :D Thanks baby for th time just now. I really appreciate you & everything you do.

p.s.: Sorry for my terrible burok-ness just now. I couldn't help it. See you tomorrow :)

I love you, Baby.

That's all for today.

[& i still hate Blogger]
-nurOol (:

GOING CRAZY.

2007-03-20T22:58:00.000+08:00

FIRST IT WAS MY POSTS THAT I COULDN'T SEE, AFTER EACH TIME I BLOGGED.
THEN, IT WAS MY TEMPLATE WHICH CAUSED ME SOME TROUBLES HERE & THERE.

NOW, I CANT EVEN FUCKING SEE MY OWN BLOG!!!!

LIKE, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU, BLOGGER?
OR IS IT MY I.E.?
I DON'T THINK SO LOR!

THIS IS BLOODY IRRITATING & IT'S PISSING ME OFF RIGHT ABOUT NOW.
IM THINKING OF SWITCHING TO MULTIPLY PERMANENT OR EVEN,
CHANGING TO ELJAY(LIVEJOURNAL.COM).

I ALREADY HAVE AN ALTERNATIVE BLOG HERE BUT IT'S MEANT FOR TEST RUNS ONLY (FOR E.G. WHEN I HAVE NEW SKINS I WANT TO TRY OUT, I'LL TRY IT ON THAT BLOG SO I DONT HAVE TO DISS THIS CURRENT BLOG'S TEMPLATE). SO I THOUGHT I COULD JUST SWITCH OVER, BUT FUCK, I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP ON BLOGGER ALREADY.

BLOGGER, YOU SUCK BIG TIME!!

NUROOL.

nippely man!

2007-03-20T10:40:00.000+08:00

CHECK THIS OUT SIA!

like, seriously cracked me up la! it's an Indian Video Clip made English-fied! hahaha. th lyrics are below so you can sing a long if you want!

credits: Lela, for sending this to me over MSN. (:

"nippely man i met, he ate my motorboat..."
HAHAHAHAHA.

sometimes, love aint all pretty & nice.

2007-03-20T09:00:00.000+08:00

im not saying mine is, la.

mine's been pretty smooth sailing for now. & i hope it stays this way for a very long time to come thou i predict that baby & i will get into fights thanks to each other's big E.

EGO, that is.

but that's not now. we'll see in time to come how things are between my mister & i. for now, love is all around us & i dont think it'll go away soon enough to make me not go tingly crazy whenever im with him. (:

hello!! :D

i've been on my feet ever since i woke up. sounds like i've been busy, yes? i have. with them house chores. before that, i woke up early to meet my mister. so then since i wasn't going anywhere else, i just put on my cookie munsta pj & met him without any make up on.

i think that's th first time he's seeing me au naturale. haha, just my skin & i. no add-ons. but since he says i still look pretty (HAHA), i shall go ahead & agree with him. :)

hanging around my area with him for a while is like, NOT ENOUGH man. dad called me to ask if i've eaten. of course i said NO. so i had to go home like almost immediately because dad might just scream at me for leaving th house without keeping it clean, at th very least.

which then leaves me to leave baby for home.. when he actually just left home to meet me before going for gym (which he was still pretty early at that time).

so i've been washing & hanging th laundry twice (because there's so much dirty linen in th washing machine), folding th clean ones, ironing some of th clothes in th laundry bag, eat, prep up maggi mee for Hakeem & only now i finally get to sit down.

it's been tiring. because i haven't did a single house work for sooooo long. & now they really are chores to me, literally. brr.

May Yeok (my Ward 48 CI) called me yesterday. ON A BLOODY SUNDAY! (that's not fair) ..to tell me that i had to re-do my case study. & mind you, HER case study is not like those that you did last two attachments.

hers include:

Biography of pt

Medical Diagnosis of pt

Pathophysiology of pt's diagnosis (including Laboratory Tests + Results)

Medical/Nursing Management for pt

Drug Card

Master Problem List

Care Plan

Evaluation of pt.

thank God, ive got to re-do Drug Card & Pathophysiology of pt's diagnosis only.. (which is like half of th whole thing already la. TSK) but it's unfair la, May Yeok. you dont set me free of my very much deserved holidays.

hmpf, you ah. despite your nice/kind comments you gave me for my clinical posting this time round, i still hate your nag & long-windedness.

people, watch out for Mrs Wan-Koo May Yeok. BEWARE!

i really wonder what them interviewers will ask of my mister tomorrow in th interviewing room. self-praising questions, baby would say. but that's th way it is, honey. you got to be confident of yourself. remember to always state why you are there for: to want to be a part of th Army & to help make Singapore a better living place.

*chokes*

for once, i'd NEVER hear that out of baby's mouth.. his "patroitism" for Singapore. HAHAHA, when we're both thinking of eloping to Australia even before 24jan existed for us. :)

ohh, best of lucks to you boo! *huggs*

-nurOol(:

cute little thing (:

2007-03-19T14:45:00.000+08:00

"heyy, what's your name?"
"Nina.."
"how old are you?"
"Nina.."

"..i know (:"

i don't see much white toddlers around often, & today i'm pretty lucky to have to bump into such a cute little girl. i wish she would be more camera loving because her smile is so adorable!

she had her mommey with her, & her uncle.. whom i mistaken him for Nina's daddey.

"look Nina, daddey's calling you.."
"i'm not daddey, im uncle. :)"
"oh, im terribly sorry.."
"it's alright.."

sorry mister daddey-look-alike. just that it'll be first impression to regard th man next to th toddler's mommey as her "daddey", not her uncle. so i guess you got me there. :D

met Nina at a restaurant next to Mustaffa Centre this afternoon. yes, th whole family went down to hunt for Indian cuisine, mom especially. she's been craving for Thosai since i don't know when. but when we reached, she didn't get her Thosai, they don't have it at 12 noon. funny how that is thou because i haven't heard of such things before.

but anyways, after Brunch (we hadn't had breakfast, too) we went in to th famous Mustaffa Centre & shopped! hahaha, i bet mom & i literally shopped. just that we didn't drop.... yet. (: we went around, looking at almost everything. from shoes, to socks, to men's briefs & boxers, to shirts, bags, toys, electronics, watches & i think practically th whole store EXCEPT th jewelry floor. yes, if you didn't know, Mustaffa Centre has a whole FLOOR of jewelry.

such an eyesore, man.

but anyways, we busted (okay, MOM busted her card) on two pairs of Guess watch, one pair of Fossil watch (& them three amounted to 240bucks already), three colour ink printer cartridges, an optical mouse (for th laptop. apparently, mother cant stand th key(mouse)pad & i don't understand why), my roll-on deodorants and mother's keyboard vacuum (she wants to suck th dirt in her keyboard at work. & she wants to claim th amount from her boss. but she forgot to pay separately. so i told her, suck her boss' keyboard. maybe he'll pay her for that.)

& all those, amounted to 580bucks. WOW. i felt th pinch when i saw th total amount mommey had to pay. but when she slumberly took out her card to swipe, i was already queing up to get my Guess watch (:

it was hotness man. i didn't get a chance to take a photo of it yet. it has a HOT RED strap with hearts, "embossed" on it, a huge round watch face with hearts all over in it, & striking glitter to go around them hearts. it was so hot that my wrist was sizzling when i put it on to try. & for today, it totally matched my newly painted red nails & my red top.

WOW! such a fateful moment. hahahaha.

i'll take a picture of it soon & show th world my sexy baby soon. :) oh, what about th other Guess & Fossil watches you ask? haha, those are mommey's. SHE KIASU LA PLEASE. i don't know but she's got a thing for Fossil watches & as for th Guess watch, she's been itching for one.. so, there you go.

GIRLS, sometimes they just cannot NOT buy something so pretty. ohh, i know you so know that feeling. right! right?? righttt?!! :D

PHANTOM OF TH OPERA was marvellous. thou half th time they were singing, i totally dig it from a to z. i wish i could go catch their musical that's already on their way to Singapore. mannnn, somebody... BRING ME THERE. i'll pay you back by installments. :D (hahaha, broke already!)

btw, baby's got an interview this Tuesday with th Army. haha, yes, that Army thing.. i forgot what it's called. it's for his sponsorship. i really want to tag along, to see how th place looks like & to see if my mister is cut-out to work in that kind of environment with all th uniform & what not.

haha, surely sexy one. with his ~~hotsex~~ handsome body! wooooots.

okeh deh, til th next time!
-nurOol(:

baby, im back! BOOOOOZE.

2007-03-18T15:42:00.000+08:00

Yes. It’s finally over. The attachments. They’re.....

OVER!!!!!!

Hurray to nurool, three cheers for sweet revenge. HAHA, i'm being absolutely corny because I don’t know where to start blogging. I mean I know where, here lah of course but then I just don’t know how to like start blogging properly... IRGH.

Let’s do this again.

Hurray to nurool!!! Oooh la la, I’m all done & over with attachments & I feel sooo much lighter. not literally... in fact, i've been gaining kilos, double the amount that I lost them to my terrible diarrhea (which I shat 9 freaking times the whole evening!) last Sunday. I tell you, my asshole can never get any looser, man.

IT'S THAT TERRIBLE!

i couldn’t not do anything to it because i had to report to work at 7am in the morning the next day (Monday) so i had to see a GP, like it or not. (I didn't want to leave the house fearing i might just shit out everything along the way because it's going to be hard to look for a toilet).

It took freaking one & a half hour to finally see the GP who only saw me for ten minutes. Urgh, precisely why i hate going to doctors asides the medicines i have to gulp down. So after that, we went home & i felt so much better already. I could talk to mommey like i could talk for the first fucking time.

HAHA, i chatted non-stop just the way i am, healthy. Because before that i was all weak & mega tormented by all them shitting business I couldn’t talk any shit out. It was disastrous because on top of that, i have to always RUN to the toilet, pumping on extra energy that i already used up, to be in time to let all them water out as soon as my ass touches the seat.

BOOOOOZE. hahaha, come to think of it, it kinda is a "good" way to loose your tummy because after 9 fucking times of booze, my tummy was almost gone. (thou it's still flabby) ..but that's besides th point. :D

enough of shit story, my whole week has been busy. ..just like th other two previous weeks. yes, thanks to th attachments. & HURRAY TO ME for not being late A SINGLE MORNING SHIFT, at all. heyy, it's hard work for a person who stays so god damn far away from th bloody hospital, who has to wake up at 4am to be on time to report for work by 7am OKAY.

plus im such a pig. BUT THAT'S ALSO BESIDES TH POINT. th one next to th point always come into th limelight for nothing la seh. so kaypoh.

-.-"

So, I’ve been busy. But never too busy enough for baby of course (I bet he’s smiling away now because he’s th one who bugged me to update this bloggoooo) (: & I finally got to catch a movie after so long.

It wasn’t th best choice thou cause we weren’t really “legal” for M-18 shows as yet. (tsk lar..) so we couldn’t catch that “300” show. I heard it was fantastic. & I want to watch a fantastic show! But fantastically, that gundoo didn’t let us in. but it’s okay. We took it like men & watched “primeval” instead.

Which in th end, didn’t sum us up as men instead. It was a rather boring show & I swear th croc look pretty unrealistic for some reasons. I guess I was much more interested in th black guy who would “shove Jojo up his ass if he must, to get him (Jojo) into America” because Jojo saved his life. Hahaha. He’s a funny ass.

So movie ended, we chilled around… Wait, “we” here represents me, Momo, Imp, Bah, Fyra, Susu & Asri. So then we sat around outside Woodlands Civics Centre because there was some issues some people had to clarify. Haha, I’m not going into details. Oh, & Yana was there, too!

She looked so hot in that formal wear la. Like, a Yana-transformed-business woman. Haha. But she’s always so girly anyways, so it makes it extra credit to be all business womanish.  hehe.

After all that talk & issue & matters discussed, we hit back home. I was dead beat. Then Tuesday came & I met Imp & Momo after work to hit Queensway. Baby wanted to get his pair of soccer shoes so we went hunting them down. Just like me, except that baby’s a Nike fan, he cannot suit any other brands so he just wanted a Nike shoe & a Nike shoe was what he got.

Woots, & it’s sizzling hot red lah! Metallic somemore you know! Hahaha, my choice.. (& Imp’s too lah) cause th black Ronaldhino one not so nice on his feet. & boy, my mister has such big feet la. You long-legged momo. xD

It was raining by th time we decided we want to go home, & it was raining mightily. I swear I haven’t been out on such a downpour for so long & th rain totally killed me spirits lah! I hate th feeling of getting my shoes wet, my jeans soaked & what have yous. Thank God Momo got his (flowery) umbrella which his mama found, brought along. Saved me hair from getting wet & sticky. (: sanks, baby!

Wednesday, Momo & I hit Esplanade for just some quality time to spend. But we saw Hyder instead, & guess what? He’s performing for half an hour at that…. I don’t know what you call that small space there but yeah there la! His band was called “Now Playing” & it was pretty cool! Loadsa jap stuff but their musicality rocks, & I enjoyed those 15 minutes I had there. (: congrats Hyde!

oh, btw! i met Eeqa on th way to Esplanade. MY GAWD, i missed her like CRAZY LA. like anything in th world. & th mo i saw her, i hugged her so tight i couldnt breathe myself. haha, but it was really nice seeing you, bitch. MISSED YOU! & your sano, ehem, not bad sehhh. :D

my happy booger face. :D

Thursday & Friday was afternoon shift for me. So I couldn’t get to go out after work but that’s okay. So far th attachments have been rather fulfilling for me, & I’m proud of myself, on th whole. I think I’ve faired pretty well & I’ve received good comments from May Yeok so, it’s all good. (:

My RESULTS.

Sigh, sorry to those whom I didn’t reply when asked about my results. I might have said that I’ve kinda improved a lil but it’s just not satisfying la. Considering th Cs I’ve gotten, it’s definitely not a very good one, too. But it’s okay, my average GPA for Sem 1 & 2 is 2. I don’t exactly know what my GPA is for this 2nd Sem, but I guess I got a 2.3 because my previous GPA was 1.7 & if th average GPA is 2, it must be 2.3 right?

But I don’t know la. If it’s 2.3 then I’m rather happy la. Thou I didn’t get to hit my target of eliminating all Ds in my results slip. (I got a D & a D+ anyway..) so I’ll try to work harder. (: for me, me baby, & me mommey.

..and maybe for th 500-dollar scholarship award as well. HEH.

I know I’ve typed so much rubbish here but there’s more that I haven’t blogged about:

• Dinner with Yong-Yao at Billy Bombers.
• Bukit Batok Old Folks Home visiting.
• Hakeem’s Scholarship Award.
• The new karaoke set!! (which costed near 2K with th new amplifiers to go along with)

And basically many more. But I can’t be stuffed so you won’t be updated on those. (: I shall post pictures thou so… here we go!

Attachments

me & Siti with nenek Nadina (:

me & Carsia bitce, met her at SGH during my SHS! :)

Sab, Sng, Nana & I
(on our last day of attachments!)

Billy Bombers Dinner with Yong-Yao
me, camwhoring before meeting Yong-Yao.
#1: th fucking sedap American Brownie with Ice cream on top!

#2: th second, fucking sedap Ultimate Sin chocolate cake. WALAOWEI.

#3: i swear it was nice if we weren't bloody full, this is B&J's chunky munky ice cream! not so sedap then, but still sedappppp!

Queensway on Tuesday

imp 1: green Nike cap (which was my favourite! look at how cute mr smiley is) so bboy-ish right! hahah xD

imp 2: black Nike cap with white words and pink outline! haha, he looks cute in this also la

imp 3: best! imp, th fisherboyy.

me with impboy's new cap! (:

my gay boyfriend. =O !

& his gay-friend, Imp! so sajak lah you become gay. HAHA.

& some randomness

me love me boyfriend(:

& me love me brother too! (:

okay i know ive typed sooooo much but there's more to come. (:
GOODNIGHT.
-nurOol(:

it's th seasons lar... tsk.

2007-03-09T14:18:00.000+08:00

HOHO

that was taken on one faithful afternoon shift when i was sending for a patient to "pang sai", she was taking half th afternoon so i decided to snap snap for a mo. (:

well im here to blog about praises. now, how often do you get praised? OKAY, snap shot: RARELY for me. but ever since ive been attached to th nursing workforce as a student nurse, ive met all sorts of patients/visitors.

those who are really nice, helpful & kind. & those who are really demanding with their constant & really irritating questions of th condition of th patient. i mean, HOW MUCH CHANGE can there be in a chronic patient in ONE pathetic day?

these kind of people DO get on my nerves sometimes & all i can do is curse & swear, & feel like strangling them in my heart but smile & tell them it's okay, they're fine, not much of a change since yesterday & keep on smiling on th outside like im one Deity, all nice & mighty loving.

PFFT.

so anyways, back to my point about being praised. im not bragging here but ive been pretty much th attention of young male patients in th first & second posting. well, im not saying im all outstanding & everything, but at EVERY posting, i never failed to get disturbed at, & at th same time being asked to give/exchange numbers.

MAN, MY PATIENTS?

#1: Ward 44, aged 23 years old, malay army boy. (haha) kinda plump in size, & not so good looking.

he DIDNT ask for my number, but from my friend instead. when one of them didnt give, he tried his luck to ask for ANOTHER friend of mine, for my number. she then, unrealisingly thought it was harmless so she gave. patient then started calling/sms-ing me asking ME to call him that night. my reaction: WHAAAAT?

#2: Ward 47, aged 23 years old, normal guy, working at a drinks stall, indian-malay guy. (heh) quite cute & very dark.

well he didnt ask for my number, TOO. but th way he wanted to get to know me more than just a student nurse nursing for him, started off by this medisave form. he was taking forever to fill it, using my pen. thing is, i needed that pen. so when i asked him for th third time for my pen, he finally gave me this piece of paper (it was actually a packet sugar, a used one though) with his number on it. he told me to call it. whereas i, on th other hand, didnt get his point.

i merely said, "huh? what number is that? medisave ah? i want to call for what?" then he tsk-ed & said, "alamak this girl dont understand lah.." so he PAISEH-ly had to explain that he wants to get to know me better & that if i was willing, i could contact him throu that number he gave. so i was like, OHH.. nevermind lah eh. *smiled* & walked away.. my reaction: OKAY, AT LEAST HE WAS GENTLEMAN ENOUGH.

#3: Ward 48 (current ward). patient's GRANDSON. -sorry i didnt really see his face but he PLUCK HIS EYEBROW, eeks!- around 20-24years old malay dude.

& AGAIN, he didnt ask for my number but his AUNT asked me on his behalf. (like, how coward can he GET?) here's a little convo me & his aunt had in th midst of changing th patient itself:

aunt: what shift are you working tomorrow?
me: oh, im on afternoon shift.
aunt: i see.. hmm, by th way, there's someone interested in you, do you mind if he wants to have your number?
me: HUH?! (shocked giler babs but i held & act cool) ohh, haha.. number? cannot la..
aunt: ahh.. you already have someone, aye?
me: oh. someone? oh yes, hahah, yea..
aunt: *shouts to th nephew -totally revealing his identity of "someone" she used to talk to me- across her* EH FAZLEE, SHE'S ATTACHED LA. SHE HAS SOMEONE ALREADY. HER PARENT'S ONE LA..
me: (parents? ...okeh la aunty, anyth goes.) heh.

so there, three cases of 'number asking' only one is successful (invasively) & other two nicely rejected. one brave enough to ask me himself, another one use aunty. LIKE, TSK, you no balls ah? im not asking you to come forth & ask me with all your manly might, but asking your aunty to ask for my number on your behalf is already one BIG turn-off, dude. SORRY.

so see, i didnt know that FEMALE WARD also can get this kind of thing. well yes, it IS kinda flattering to be asked for your number & sorts. i mean, to know that you're kinda noticed & everything right? but this.. alamaks. macam-macam lah..

anyhoots, another case of over-praising. it gets irritating sometimes how one can over-praise you. yes, people calls you pretty, you blush & sheepishly push your Dynamap to another cubicle, screen th curtains & SMILE AS WIDE AS YOU CAN. but when you do it TOOOO often, i'll get tired of blushing, sheepishly walking out of th cubicle, screening th curtain & then SMILE AS WIDELY AS I CAN, you know.

in th end, i end up "heh"-ing at th remark & sardinely push th Dynamap to another cubicle & just continue my work with one thick fat layer of skin after all th praisings.

again i emphasise that it is nice to be praised & called pretty with nice this & nice that & everything, but sigh- i get your point, i feel flattered & that's all i want to feel. are you going to praise me til my cheeck muscle turn spastic & my jaw loosen which will eventually drop out of my mouth from all th blushing & smiling so wide?

but nevertheless, TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO PRAISED ME, whether about having nice complexion, nice smile, nice nose, nice fat thighs, nice ba-ba body, nice eyes, smiling eyes, & what-have-yous, THANK YOU SO MUCH OKEH. I SO PAISEH ALREADY. no need make me feel as thou those praises mean nothing already.

HAHA. im so fucking mean, please & go away.

anyways, here are some pictures i want to pose FOR FUN & to not make this entry text-only post. (:

during th exam period, before th attachments!

th BRUISE i got from slamming my knee into th car door. TSK.

baby's wallet, filled with $10 notes worth $300plus of hot cash after collecting his pay, this afternoon. HAHA, he was sooo happy he wanted to snap a picture of it RIGHT AWAY. :D

OKEH SO ANYHOOTS, ive said my point alrdy & im tired of blogging now la deh.

so NIGHTS!
-nurOol.